Thank you, Friend! More and more, you are placing yourself in the situations and surroundings that best serve your heart and your purpose. The more you actively place yourself in high-vibration fields, the more you become who you really are. You’re seeing how low-vibration thoughts, images, ideas, food, conversation, media and relationships have a negative impact on your being. More and more, you’re spending time with the people and experiences that encourage you to feel, and to feel what's true for you. More and more, you’re choosing to immerse yourself in the energies that weave a bright and loving experience for you as an awakening human; and as you surrender to this field of your creation, you soften and connect more obviously with pure awareness.
You are beginning to really understand that you are a creator. Your life is a reflection of your inner experience and your unique expression. Thank you for doing your part to heal yourself, your relationships, and this planet. Threads of trauma and woundedness are being cut. The patterns that used to run as a result of those wounds are ready to be cleared out and replaced. What was frenetic is becoming calm. More and more, compassion and gratitude are flowing within and from you. The struggle for purpose gets replaced with openness and availability, acceptance and devotion. Congratulations on your abundance! Thank you, Friend, for your persistence. You are such a valuable part of the whole!
Fear rises up. I won't hold it. I breathe it out. Take in the good, clean air these life-giving trees are making for me.
I know these threads all too well: a tendency toward isolationism. Judgment. Competition. Separation. -isms. Control. A tendency to cut off what I perceive as having "hurt me", to avoid what's challenging. A tendency to build walls and box in to an unexamined life. These things I've seen, I've healed, am healing, in me.
So when the things happen, like Alabama - as they are happening more and more, almost every day, it seems, these past few years - my initial want is to flee. To leave the country, find a new bubble - or at least, find a quiet spot on a tropical beach... and what, hide? Numb myself with alcohol? I don't drink, so that's out. And the shining clarity of sobriety won't let me rest. Running away would mean living with denied truth lodged in my heart like a festering splinter that can't be found. The truth comes instantly, every time: Staying is unavoidable.
After that momentary desire to flee is this: Being in love and continuing to heal is all there is.
Heal it in me. Help others heal. Heal it in me. Serve.
These past few days I've watched the old play of wounding in me. In my personal life, parts that were healed were tested. I don't even listen to the news anymore; I know our connection, so I just watch what's happening in me, and I breathe, and I love and I forgive. I come home.
The process isn't always comfortable. Sometimes it stuns me, knocks me to the ground. But this good ground has her roots in me; she receives my hurts and holds me up. I am devoted. I learn. I return to love.
It's why I'm here. It's why I stay. It's why I return: to love.
Memory of the fires and of not being burned. Held captive by a man who knew me - felt the truth, longed to live there - but wrestled with his internalized fears that belonged to the men around him. Knowing the truth, but pulled by the lies they told about me, about the tribe of Woman. I was held captive. Hidden. Not burned. Protected. Grudgingly, painfully, vitally trusted. He understood my connection, had felt it himself, felt the deep divine love administered to his hurts and his heart through the portal of my earth-womb-heart-hands; but the fear taught him to control what was free and good, wild and alive; so I was punished, all the while holding space for his struggle. Rooting to the earth; disconnect impossible. Rooted and receiving - fortified, blessed - watching him long to rest in his heart's knowing, watching him trying not to fall in line with the fear and the lies, watching him hating himself for not being able to just be. He beat me to punish his own weakness, his confusion. But while others burned, he did not give me up. I tended my wounds and I tended him, holding space for his process, giving him the medicine of lifetimes. Seeing clearly in him the truth he longed to remember, beneath his anger and suffering. Loving him toward his return to freedom, to peace.
So I stay.
Flee, stay, and next comes the relief that I don't have children who will inherit this mess. And then the sharp ache for the little ones in my life and the lives of my friends. And then these children's children, and on and on. Grateful for their courage, their emotional intelligence, their independence. Praying they are taught above all else to listen, listen, listen to their hearts. To love and honor themselves and all beings.
And then the knowing: I inherit this. The current embodiment has never been and will not be my end.
I've been here before. I'll be here again. Healing, healing, healing. Rooted and receiving. Fortified and blessed, in service.
Love lives. Love lifts. Love is. I am here.
"I am resilient.
I trust the movement.
I negate the chaos,
Uplift the negative.
I'll show up at the table again and again and again.
I'll close my mouth and learn to listen."
-Resilient, Rising Appalachia
I'll be announcing dates for more Clearing Ceremonies next week! Space is limited to 6 participants.
I'm in awe of how this energy medicine gets designed specifically for each person. It's like they are a tapestry, and the medicine unties knots, repairs holes in the fabric, and weaves together the field... all perfectly timed and in the doses for which people are available.
This is not Reiki (although Reiki was my introduction to energy work), and it's not Pranic Healing, or anything else I've heard of - although the modalities all connect; they all have flavors of each other. The medicine that flows through me has not yet shared its name (although I'm starting to know who/what it is). It is energy. It is Spirit. It has its own intelligence. We collaborate, and together we serve. I continue to learn.
It's historically felt uncomfortable for me to market this work. I'd been doing it almost secretively for years. Last Fall, a wise man said to me: "Do you think God wants you to just sit around and hope people somehow magically know about this? I'm guessing the Universe wants people to receive this healing. You're going to have to tell them you exist." Smart, huh? (I can think of a few other healers who might take those words to heart.) So I opened my mouth about it, and now more and more people are accessing me and this medicine. More and more people are being helped; more and more people are receiving upgrades from this particular consciousness. I'm the human one in this sacred collaboration, so I'm doing the human part of spreading the word, finding the venues, creating the containers and delivering the medicine. I'm so grateful to be in this sacred partnership! Whoop whoop!
I'm happy to be going offline for the next few days. I'll have ceremony dates and info for you next week.
Sometimes you just know the answer. You don't know how you know, and what you know goes against what your mind may be telling you.
I wonder what it would be like to trust your knowing - to let your heart drive the decision making, even if it's unlike what you've always done. Even if it makes no sense. Even if there are a thousand reasons to make a different choice.
Because something in you just knows.
I wonder what it would be like to create a soft spot in the back seat, where your mind's reasoning can take a rest. Those parts of you deserve some love and gentleness; they've tried so hard to serve you over the years. And it's worked out pretty well, for the most part. You've certainly been kept safe - or at least, things have stayed the way they've been. Thank you, parts of you, for trying.
But there's something that's more... right. For you, I mean. You know what I mean.
Your heart knows the clearest path home. And it so loves to drive. Best driver on the road, you might say. Knows how to navigate around all that noise and traffic. Never bothers with detours. Takes you to profoundly familiar places you've never been.
So take a minute.
Breathe into it.
Your heart speaks your deepest truth.
It's what you know.
Yesterday I got this message from God:
Aowyn is my co-pilot.
Cool, huh? Try it. Fill in your own name and say it out loud:
_____ is my co-pilot.
Can you feel the truth here?
As you awaken, your perspective shifts so you see from the I Am, and your human self becomes the co-pilot - a learning, feeling, experiencing, physical expression that lovingly serves our shared divinity by living a heart-guided life.
We hear that word a lot these days - "awakening". It means a lot of things. Humans are waking up to our own shadows, the dark sides of our personalities. We're learning about how we’ve agreed to a life of discontent, and how we hold ourselves back from true freedom. We're letting go of identification with this or that. We're waking up to it all, and we're letting go. This is what I mean when I talk about "homecoming." We're coming home to our truest selves. This is the awakening process.
We're coming home to the truth of our divinity. As we self-realize or "awaken" to it, we begin to experience and live from that divine connection. As we each heal the wounds we carry - the things that have kept us believing in separation as reality, we start living from our heart. We come alive in new, timeless ways. We begin to heal our communities - the harms humans have done to one another out of a sense of separation, judgment, and I'm-right-you're-wrong. When we reconnect to our divine selves, we can love our human selves and each other. We stop needing to fill our emotional holes with addictions and consumerism and competition. We stop harming ourselves, each other and the planet, and we return to the harmony that is our true nature.
_____ is my co-pilot.
(Go on, give it a try. Right out loud.)
(Put it on your fridge. Say it often.)
_____ is my co-pilot. They’re aligning to become more heart-centered, more lovingly skillful, more surrendered to the ease and simplicity and flow of living in truth with What Is. A co-pilot who's realizing that they are a creator, and they're ready to create harmony in their own inner experience, their life, their family, their community, and the entire world.
And so it is. Blessed be.
Congratulations on your abundance! More and more, you are investing in the awakening of your own heart, knowing that you are responsible for your own evolution. Bless your curiosity, your willingness to listen and to honor differences. Thank you for not needing to be right all the time. Thank you for courageously shining light into your own darkness in order to root out and heal the beliefs that separate you from your true self and others. You're beginning to choose acceptance over judgment, truth over lies, love over fear. May you be mindful, and may you practice being gentle with yourself. Remember: no shame, no blame - just clarity. May you accept and forgive and emerge aligned, with integrity and dignity, more honest and more humble and more truly powerful. Thank you for doing your part for our collective healing. May you embody the knowing that we are all connected. We are the One. We hold the wisdom and the guidance to heal our very DNA, all beings, and this planet. May you be a graceful beacon of truth for others’ unique homecoming. I give thanks for your courage and your healing. I give thanks for the ancestral warrior within. I give thanks for the light and the shadows, and the balancing of all systems. Bless you, Friend. You’re powerful, and you are doing this, in your perfect way. I'm so thankful to be here, now, with you. With delight and gratitude, I say: Aho!
of self-denial when I took responsibility for the rape of my body. Call up the confusion, the lack of understanding. Call up the precious INNOCENCE. Call up the beautiful, trusting parts of me, and the ways my trusting self was violated and betrayed and dishonored, and let the sorrow and the grief of that wash through every part of my being. Help me to see and feel the injustice done to my younger self, and help me to protect and hold that younger me from my healed place of felt wholeness and empowerment, where I now live. Hecate, show me what I need to see and help me to FEEL IT ALL and cast it into the flames, fueling the RAGE that propels me to action. Call it up and keep it burning through this long night. I will continue this sacred process of remembrance. I will continue to speak my experience, adding my voice to the many, as we join together in our rage to REMOVE FROM POWER those who carry the lineage of fear that seeks to mock, accuse, shame, blame and disempower women. I add my voice to those that shine light on the perpetrators of sexual violation. I stand solidly as proof that HEALING IS POSSIBLE, and I offer myself and my life experience as an example, an inspiration and an instrument of healing.
We are gaining numbers and power and momentum, calling from the heart of Sisterhood to all women: YOU ARE NECESSARY. We call you home, to stand with us. We have been violated and disbelieved, mocked and judged, accused and silenced. We've been burned at the stake, in our homes, in our churches, on the streets and in the courtroom. But as more and more of us see and FEEL and remember the fear-driven sentencing and executions so many of us have endured, WE ADD LIFE ENERGY - DIRECTLY FROM THE FIRES THAT HAVE BURNED US - to the growing bonfire beneath this cauldron of transformation we are now stirring. Thank you, Hecate, for this bright illumination at the dark crossroads of this battle.
May I allow the energy of Venus Retrograde to help me feel into the darkest corners of my entire ancestry, where I may have disbelieved, ignored, shamed, avoided, disempowered or harmed myself or other women. Stand by me, Hecate, as I feel the pain of my own betrayal and wail its primal, healing power into the heart of all living things. Help us all to remember that women birth life into this world; we are the keepers of the heart and the hearth; we are the sustainers. Remind us that our VITALITY is the very rhythm that moves this world. We are the beating heart that connects all humans to our Mother Gaia. From this grounded place, we HOWL the pain of betrayal at the moon until the vibration of our collective sound cleanses and heals every one of us. We remember, we forgive, and together we stand.
To the women who have forgotten they are members of the Sisterhood, you who have taken on the beliefs of those who deny the innate power in women, you who have forgotten, denied or given away your own power, I shine Hecate's light and say: Open your eyes and see your sisters. We are here, we are all different but very much the same. We are ALIVE, and we are joining together. Share your experience of isolation and let your tears of suffering blend with all others to become a powerful ocean - because Mama, we move together as One, and that includes YOU. You are not alone. You have a heart, a mind, a body that belongs only to you. You do not have to believe what they have told you. Remember who you are. YOU MATTER. You are powerful. You are welcomed and wanted and honored. You are seen and held with compassion, no matter the mistakes you think you've made - just as we all practice holding ourselves with compassion, no matter the mistakes we think we've made. Every choice you have made has been in service to your sacred self and your needs, whether your actions have been aligned and empowering or misaligned and regretted. Thank you for doing your best to honor you. With compassion and reverence, we remember, we forgive, and we invite integrity and full alignment in every woman, to join together and stand in the shining power of this sacred tribe of sisters. Come home.
Gracefully supported by the Goddess Hecate, I shine the light of transformation into my own darkness, my own pain, and I hold loving space for anyone who needs to be seen. Call on me. I'm here for you. I'll cry with you. I'll scream with you. I'll hold you and all of it with spacious, expansive love. I offer the truth of Divine reflection. Together we see, feel, heal and change this world. We hold the vision of our future: nonviolent leadership and citizenship that honor and co-create safety, equality, respect and freedom for women and all beings.
Thank you, Hecate, for blessing us with your steadfast, graceful, enlightening assistance.
And so it is.
Mythologies and stories, deities and energies, multidimensional beings, ancestors and revolutionaries of the past and present, and all guides and guardians who stand with us in the highest good of all: Thank you for uniting and joining us as we navigate this momentous death/rebirth, to aid in the healing and transformation that is required and is happening, every step of the way. We welcome and thank the ascended masters of mindfulness, love and healing. We welcome and thank you who shine light into the darkest places for the sake of our understanding. Thank you for your protection. We call on the warriors who will firmly establish in us the strength to fight. We give thanks for the brilliant light of Truth as it radiates from our hearts. We give thanks for our shining love and its joyful, passionate, creative expression. We invite inspiration, courage and manifestation of the highest good from those who will help us to create, midwife, birth, mother and shepherd our new way of being into this culture and the world. We thank you for your assistance, and welcome you to the circle.
Where to begin with this RAGE searing my hands to the keyboard?
I begin with gratitude for the INTENSITY of this phase in our evolution. I offer thanks to the Conscious Awareness and the Universe for our long-awaited arrival in this moment. We started our cry, our plea, our intentions and prayers for change a long, long time ago. It’s taken a long time (in our human perception) for the Universe to line everything up just right, for the many things to happen that have needed to happen to bring us right here right now, where we FINALLY get to experience the tipping point and bring humanity back home to our essential nature that is LOVE - caring, compassion, fairness, kindness, respect, reverence - through LOVING JUSTICE.
The lovingness, respect and integrity that is being shown - this is the Way of Women. We will take DOWN these institutions, these lies, these hateful, fearful, ruinous, life-taking beliefs and ways of being, with a fierce LOVE like nothing you have ever seen. As my dear Friendship says: You’re feeling uncomfortable about all this? Uncomfortable is a GIFT.
I am harnessing my anger. I am now asking Spirit and my highest self for direction and instruction. I am ready for my next assignment. I am willing and able to be the Warrior I Am in whatever way I’m meant to be. For now, I’m FEELING and I’m SPEAKING. I am SUPPORTING WOMEN AND MEN. I am WRITING. I am JOINING WITH COMMUNITY. I am PRAYING and I am LISTENING and I am STANDING POWERFULLY, thanks to the shining grace of the Divine Feminine, supported by and in cooperation with the Divine Masculine, while we ROAR our deepest NO! WE WILL NOT ALLOW the degradation, the diminishment, the silencing, the violence toward and blaming of women to continue.
I now stand with gratitude in this most powerful light, this holy corridor of sacred fire, guarded and guided and inspired by our loving Kali Ma, the aspect of the Divine Mother whose energy destroys what does not serve our hearts, preserves what is loving, and gives fresh life to all ways and to all beings. Kali has shown up on my behalf through the years, lighting up my own shadows so I could see, so I could be taken through certain death and revived to new inner worlds of truth, empowerment and service. She has brandished her life-giving swords on my behalf more than once. KALI, with deepest gratitude for your healing work, I now call you to service. Please destroy in me all that lives in fear and all that would do harm. Help me to see, with loving forgiveness, how I have participated in the oppression and harm of any and all beings. Please take me through the fire in a way that is complete, with purity of heart and vision and with powerful self-love, and birth me into the full power of light and consciousness in service to the complete healing of all beings. Thank you for working through me, for guiding my sword to where it can now make the most change in loving service to WOMEN, to TRANS MEN and NONBINARY PEOPLE, and to all beings in this country and around the world, including men, who have suffered at the hands of the patriarchy and its fear. May the power that has surfaced as a result of this fear be completely destroyed and replaced with the healing wisdom of our ancestors - those who have come before, those who are now and those who are yet to be. May I be a healing and life-giving instrument of love and peace in every breath, every sound, every movement and every action I take.
I claim these names: WARRIOR. HEALER. TEACHER. MEDICINE WOMAN. LIGHTWORKER. CHANGE AGENT.
When we have seen all we need to see in order to bring about the complete destruction of what harms not only women but all of humanity, you can rest assured that, hand in hand with my Sisters, locally and globally, I will be here to heal, rebirth and rebuild what remains. With love, compassion, remembrance and forgiveness. I serve as one of many midwives for the beautiful, heart-centered, love-based creations of mind, body and Spirit that are now on the way for humanity.
And so it is.
There is nothing more freeing than the gift of being lovingly seen and accepted exactly as we are. Nothing compares to the clarity of our hearts - or the feeling of being invited to listen to our heart’s wisdom by someone who cares. To be who we are, by following our hearts – it’s life changing. It may be the greatest gift we could possibly give or receive.
What would it be like if we held our friends that way – with spaciousness, free from judgment or comparison, with a gentle, steadfast clarity and presence like light?
What would it be like if we held our family members that way – if we stood gently with them and allowed them to be, however they are?
What would it be like if we held our enemies like that – with acceptance, with trust in every heart’s essential truth, with a spaciousness that allowed the heart to be seen?
What if we made space for the people who hurt us – the ones who hurt our families, our communities, our planet – what if we gave them space to return to love? What if they received it?
What if we held our own hearts with pure, humble gratitude and surrender?
What kind of expression would emerge?
What profound joy?
What peace among humans?
How expansive could our love become?
What would it be like to be held like that?
You are perfect exactly as you are.
I'll just stay here with you, if that's ok. You can just feel into your heart.
Maybe some ease is available to you... maybe there are some blockages.
Whatever is there is ok with me.
There’s nothing you have to do right now, except be.
I'll just be here with you.
What would it be like to know what someone else experiences
when you let your heart be your guide? Like this:
When you listen to your heart and take care of your heart’s needs, something in me relaxes.
I breathe more deeply. I feel peace.
When you allow your heart to guide you,
I feel an ok-ness.
That’s how it feels to me when you honor your heart.
If you would like, invite the space in which to be lovingly seen.
Invite the Seers.
You are perfect exactly as you are.
Bless you. Thank you.
If you can hold clear, loving space for others to hear their hearts, you are called to service.
It's time to offer your spacious presence in service
to each and every living thing, and to those yet to come.
Time to let yourself be changed by the act of witnessing another's truth.
Bless you, and thank you.
We join together as partners in this great and powerful gift.
To give is to receive. To receive is to give.
All are equal participants, equally valuable and necessary in the healing, the awakening,
the profoundly connected and widespread ascension that is underway.
Givers and receivers. Every one essential.
This is where our salvation, our revolution, and our evolution live.
Our hearts are the Knowers. Our hearts are the Medicine. Our hearts speak Truth.
When we live with our hearts as our guides,
when we see each others' hearts are leading,
we let go
and we heal the world.
This post was inspired by Peter, and by Friendship.
When we are at peace with what is, when we remember how to honor our hearts, when we know how we feel, when we feel our feelings, when we breathe it through - when we breathe;
When the thing we incarnated in order to heal - that thing we worked with for so many years, and finally there came lasting spaciousness - when the thing we incarnated in order to heal is healed;
When the layers have been peeled away until the core is gently revealed and lovingly seen, honored with acceptance and Love from and for Thy Divine Self, from and for Thy Human Self -
Then we know that everything is truly ok.
We find the place where divine purpose meets human function.
It looks nothing like what we thought it would look like.
It is better than everything we could not previously conceive of, but can now.
It is more true, more full, more right, more simple than even that.
We are released from our armor to reveal our strategies of protection, our wounds and our misconceptions, our vulnerability, our growing clarity; we trust and we persist with our healing, and we stay in our relief and our gratitude for our Light and our Love. We feel the depths of grief and the heights of bliss, and it is all the same. We breathe it all through.
We live in a human body as the divine flow.
We see. And we accept and we receive the blessing of every single thing we experience. Our existence is the healer, the teacher. We let go in order to truly live, and we bow with humble gratitude for the gift of our surrender. We generate, cultivate, and radiate Love. With our healed and healing existence in the here/now, and by living a heart-guided life, we manifest a new world for future generations. Here and now - across the mountains and valleys of duality and disconnect, from within the rubble of evolution's destruction phase - we see the light of homecoming.
The Return. A Remembering. For All.
We align with Source, which has been in us all along. The living, breathing process of becoming is innately ecstatic and, finally, obvious. Available and generous. Magical. And normal.
Our alignment is a middle-ground Medicine Way of Being.
This Way holds the Heart as the Queen, the Jewel, the Divine, the Source of All Blessings, the True and Trusted and Only Guide. It is the Medicine Way, the Way of the Medicine that we are and that heals all.
We exist in this Way where whatever we truly want or want to create, we can and do create.
With deep respect, we are creating a new world - by following our heart's guidance, which is the guidance of Love, which is the Source that lives in every single one of us and will always show us our truth.
We trust our hearts. and so we move in any direction we are pointed.
With a Presence that heals. In wider and wider circles.
One by One.
We release the constructs, the imagined boundaries of our minds.
We are open, and we listen, and we witness the simple brilliance of finally and always following our hearts.
We take every opportunity to share our Love.
The Medicine Way is alive and wondrous, even in the dark.
Its perfection amplifies our devotion to it.
We live mindfully; we listen to our hearts' knowing, and we manifest its intention.
Anything that appears to divert the path is a blessing that makes the road even more expansive as we hold space, give space, invite space, and bring Light to the space, whatever space we're in.
We integrate, and we align.
It looks everything and nothing like what we thought it would when we began to know our purpose. It can look like anything we want; our loving presence is our service.
We are here to be.
Not all the time,
Because of our shared vulnerability in the safe space we co-created, I was able to drop my defenses and see her with my heart. I was able to hold her and me with a real sweetness, a real love. I realized that the judgment she displayed wasn’t about me. As a result, I started to feel a new freedom to be my full self in her presence... and to love and know and care for her more deeply than before. We were each able to acknowledge the truth of our experience, see a hidden tension that had been between us, learn about our own experiences and behavior, and become closer – and more free to be who we are – as a result.