When we fear that the truth of who we are is in danger, humans have a tendency to protect ourselves, sometimes in ways that are harmful to others. Most of us were born with the felt experience of infinite connection, knowing our preciousness; but for many, circumstances created a fear of that preciousness being harmed, shunned or taken away. That fear is enough to make us harden, resist, judge, fight, strategize, hide, pretend, isolate, separate, oppress or even hate, as a way to protect our precious Truth. Sometimes we do that for so many years - or lifetimes - that this notion of separation becomes our personality, our way of being. It is far from the truth of who we are.
Over time, we run that program for so long, we no longer remember what our Truth truly is, and we begin to locate not in our wholeness, but in the walls we've built around it. We forget who we are; we speak from the walls, instead of from our hearts. We actively separate, rather than resting in the connected wholeness that still lives in us - that which we are, but which now lives under so many layers of protection.
Sometimes a person, a movement, or an era comes along and creates an opening for people's Truth to courageously emerge. Sometimes whole groups of people start coming home at once.
Sometimes, when a person first stands in their Truth, it comes out as anger. It can sound demanding, deserving, immature, mean, even asshole-ish, and often lacking the grace that will unfold with time, especially if loved into homecoming.
When we remember our Truth, we are more able to hold space for others' Truths to be remembered. We can hold loving space while others navigate their way home, through the layers of their fearful anger or defense - or even offense, grief or shame, or however the journey home begins. We don't tolerate this process; we honor it. We allow its movement. We do not turn away. We do not hide. In the sometimes ungraceful beginning of someone's unfolding, we work to resist the temptation to restore our old walls of judgment, defense and separation - the ones we built so long ago to protect our own precious Truth, and later dissolved in order to live in freedom. In time, as we learn to love and honor ourselves in these moments of forgetfulness, the temptation to again separate dissolves. Instead, we hold loving space, from our own place of wholeness. We remain - as Jesus did, as Gandhi did - in love.
We demonstrate Love
For those we love,
For those with whom we disagree,
For those whose fear runs the show,
For those who are so lost, they do harm.
We stand lovingly, solidly in the truth of our shared wholeness for those who are so lost, they encourage others to do harm.
We demonstrate Love.
This is the space we hold for the current wave of remembrance. It is the place from which we take action, even though the catalyst for Truth's emergence looks like total chaos. We stand in the blessed freedom of Truth. We live from love. We lead in love. We allow our hearts to call the other hearts home.
Art by Autumn Skye Morrison
Friend. Your intuition is spot on. If something makes you wag your tail, look there.
Sometimes your brain will bother you with nagging thoughts of regret or concern. Don't worry about them. When you notice your brain doing this little dance, acknowledge it: "Huh. The brain is doing this regret thing." Or even: "Hm. That's not me." Then ask to switch - or declare that you are switching - to a different lens. For example: "I'm ready to see this through the eyes of love." Or maybe: "I'm switching to a loving lens." Or how about starting here: "I love you, (your name)." You can shift to a different way of seeing, thinking, feeling.
This shifting to a different Way - these are not just words on a page. It is real.
Lovingness is not some foreign experience to seek or figure out or make happen. It is in you; it is who you are, and all that is required is a shift in your awareness, your perspective. Move your attention. Become aware of love. It is.
So relax, yes? Be nice to you. Breathe the love that is always and already Who You Are.
Your feelings, in combination with your thoughts, are magnetizing experience to you. So let them be loving, in service to the highest good for yourself and all beings. Why bother with anything else?
You are brilliantly designed to create your experience based on your feelings and focus. Luckily, you have been evolutionarily gifted with consciousness, the ability to use mindfulness, and free will, all of which you can combine and use as a tool to literally rewire your brain and help you create the experience you want to be having. If you have already discovered these tools, you can count this as a reminder to go ahead and use them. It is your gift and your birthright and your purpose to create, and you are doing it, consciously or not. You get to do it from love or from fear. You get to choose. These are not just words on a page; it is real. You get to choose your experience, and since everything is connected, your experience affects everything.
Remember love. It is who you are.
You are important, Sister.
Brother, you are important.
Thank you for your good work.
Bowing to your heart,
It is time now for many of us to stop telling our old stories. Time to stop calling up those old feelings that keep you shackled to your past. Time to tell your NOW story - your story of you. Tell it into being, Friend.
"I feel _______. I live this way: _______. I am ready for _______."
Your words are so very powerful, Friend.
They keep things alive.
They give life; they birth. They create worlds.
And... there is such a thing as right timing, right? Because there's a lot of learning to be done as a result of what has happened. A lot of power in telling your stories. Power in watching them change over time, as you change over time. So feel into yourself. Is there more healing to do, by way of your storytelling? Is there more learning, more understanding, more awakening, more opportunities for alignment contained therein?
When you tell your stories, do you feel yourself returning to the old feelings as well? Feelings are the most powerful manifesters. They are the fuel and the main ingredient for your creations. Are your stories and their attached feelings anchoring you to a past version of you?
Are there ways to tell your stories from where you are now, that honor and respect who you were? Ways that honor and empower who you are becoming?
Is it time to detach completely from the old, knowing the story is complete within you, and needs no further tending? Is it time to let go?
Is it time to tell only your NOW story? To stand solidly, empowered in your current experience, unencumbered by the past? Is it time to really feel and know freedom?
Creator, are you ready to choicefully, consciously feel and simmer in the feelings of a future reality that already exists, and thereby call it into manifestation?
You know your timing. You know your fertile ground. You know your ruts. You know you best. I hold your experience, whatever it is, with such reverence. I'm here with you, wherever you are, in every moment.
And if a universal nudge forward is what you have called to yourself, Friend, then this is it.
If the timing is right, then I give you permission, dear soul, to stop telling outdated stories about you. You are allowed and invited to be here now with your words, your heart, your knowing. You are invited to fully embody your current experience of you, with everything you are. You are invited to be free, and to create from here.
Bowing to your beautiful heart,
Thank you for your good work, Friend.
You are doing so much. Thank you for your courage and your tenacity. Your patience through this learning process is such a gift. Thank you for learning to listen. Thank you for learning to honor and respect your experience, and the experience of others. Thank you for letting go of blame, and tending to what's in you. Thank you for learning what it means to forgive.
Thank you for choosing love.
I invite you to allow yourself to experience true pleasure. Now is a potent time for you to create and imprint a much deeper experience of it in your system. This too is part of the collective healing we are currently participating in, and will support your fortitude in the days to come. I invite you to slow way down. Set aside your ideas of what you think should make you feel good, and luxuriate in what actually brings you pleasure. Quiet down the noise and listen for your relaxed aliveness. Drink it up. Soak it in. Let your cells be nurtured and nourished by this deep knowing that is exquisitely yours. Reset, replenish, restore. Every part of you will thank you in the days to come.
Bowing deeply to your powerful heart,
Fall wind gives another push to the red orange brown leaves - fullness of summer's growth shining bright as day, letting go bit by bit as we head toward the stillness of winter. I can feel the culmination of so much work, as the final energetic lint balls of summer's healings get swept away to further reveal the ancient, baby-fresh Truth of who I Am, held in this sea of Forgiveness.
I Am: One gigantic incarnated, multi-bodied deity. Each of us perfectly where we are in our realization of this truth. Living on this unfathomably intelligent, generous, responsive Earth.
I am learning to live in Forgiveness. It arises naturally in the expansion of my awareness. I practice it by bringing mindfulness to it.
I am taking time with Forgiveness. Breathing it in. Breathing it out. It's so much bigger than I ever thought it was. Probably so much bigger than I even know now.
I worked hard for years to achieve a state of forgiveness for those who'd harmed me with their energy, words or actions. I worked to release anger and resentment. At best, I achieved acceptance based on the knowing that "hurt people hurt people" - they have suffered, and so they do harm. But forgiveness? No, not really.
I worked hard to forgive myself for intentionally or accidentally harming others or myself. I learned to practice shifting out of the deep neural grooves I'd carved from feelings of guilt and regret. It brought some relief. But forgiveness? For myself? Not really.
The balm that finally released me to freedom is the Forgiveness that arises from the realization that everyone is in the process of waking up to the truth of our unity. No one is left out of this process. We are each literally doing the best we can, given the awareness we currently have. And every bit of everything is happening perfectly, in right timing.
When I say "awareness", I am specifically referring to the awareness of our unity. Everything affects everything. If you don't truly know that everything is connected, it seems fine to put your material success above others' basic needs. It seems fine to simmer in judgment of yourself or others. It seems fine to waste resources. At this level of awareness, you truly do not know that your energy, intentions, words and actions affect everyone and everything. The journey into awareness is indeed a journey, with layers and phases, ebbs and flows, big and small awakenings. Walking this path, your alignment is inevitable. Not that you're perfect and blissed out all the time, but you begin to become aligned. The map of life is enlightened, read easily by your heart's compass. You continue to learn and make choices as best you can, and your growing awareness guides you to source those choices in love. You know when something you've felt, said or done feels off, you lovingly accept what is, you correct left or right to stay the course, and you continue on. You grow to live a life of intention, knowing that you affect everything.
Even if you know you'll harm yourself or someone else by doing something, and you choose to do it anyway, that is the level of awareness you currently have, and you are doing the best you can with that awareness. Your awareness in that moment literally does not allow you to act differently. You are perfectly where you are on your spiritual journey, always. Every experience you have and every choice you make is here to help you learn, as you awaken to Truth. It's a journey. It spans lifetimes. And every experience and every choice exists in a neverending sea of Forgiveness.
And so you do the thing and you cause suffering, and here you are with the feelings of guilt, shame, regret. These feelings are messages from your internal compass. They are a gift. They are your heart's voice. When you hurt someone, including yourself, you feel bad. The "bad" feeling is a teacher, here to help you make new choices on your awakening journey, rightly timed with your growing awareness of our unity.
You are not meant to suffer. You are not meant to flog yourself for the rest of your days. Your higher self does not ask this of you. You are here for love - here to love, and to be loved. In all ways. Always. Your experience of fear, separation and suffering is a temporary forgetfulness of who you are. Free will allows you - has always allowed humans - to choose love and unity, or fear and separation.
In every moment, you are free to shut down, ignore your feelings and carry on with life. You are free to continue condemning others or doing the painful acts, and to replay the feelings of anger/resentment or guilt/shame/regret over and over until you die. Because you are a human, you have the gift of free will. The path of separation is available to you. And in this choosing, you are sacred. You are loved exactly as you are, in your divine perfection, wherever you are on your journey of awakening.
In every moment, you are free to change. You are free to hear your heart, let go of any contracts you've made with yourself to uphold beliefs, stances, loyalties, behaviors, or ways of thinking or feeling that separate you from your true self, other beings or the Earth. You are free to drop them like a hot coal, and begin a new way of being. You are free to step into love in every moment. You are free to let go of "I can't, I'm not, I'm too old, it's too late." You are free to start now.
In every moment, you are free to experience forgiveness for the separation you have caused or experienced. You are free to feel and witness your feelings. You are free to choose a loving way of being with yourself and in this world. You are free to zoom out to a larger perspective, to enter a field of grace where love and learning are available to you right now. Because you are a human, you have the gift of free will. The path of love and unity is available to you. And in this choosing, you are sacred. You are loved exactly as you are, in your divine perfection, wherever you are on this journey of awakening.
Across lifetimes, across all timelines, in all concurrent realities, everything is forgiven.
Everything is always returning to the light, perfectly.
From this perspective, Forgiveness isn't about a person.
It's not about you or me. It just Is.
In every moment, Forgiveness holds all things sacred.
May all beings be completely healed and awakened. May the light of Forgiveness spread like a balm through the hearts of all beings, so that we may be free to heal and to remember, integrate and fully embody the Truth of who we really are. May all beings choose love and unity, to live in harmony with the Earth and all things. May the pure light of love shine brilliantly and be known through every perfect human expression, free from fear, in the ineffable Truth and beauty of our unified divinity.
Riding the waves
of this profound divine incarnate experience
with gratitude, trust, courage and love,
Divine Creators: A quick note about intention setting and manifestation. Remember how your words are all powerful? Your feeling state is the fuel that moves those words from sound to solid.
Consider that the words "want" and "need" imply lack. Since lack is an inherent vibration in "want" and "need" statements, at least a portion of what you're requesting is more lack. Get it? Try using "ready for" and "excited to" instead. Check it out:
Feel the difference?
But before you begin: boost your creationary words with feeling. Your feelings are the ground into which you're planting the seeds of your intentions, so make it fertile. Make it alive. When you're making an intention, take a minute to focus on your heart. Feel that place in your chest. See it. Breathe. Smile (smiling activates chemicals that create an inner atmosphere of welcoming and friendliness). Think of something that makes you happy - Fall, puppies, your amazingness, good friends, love, anything. Then let go of that image and just FEEL that happy feeling. Feel it in your heart. Feel it in yer bones. Breathe your heart. Now say those magic words: I'M READY TO...
It's Fall, peeps, and we're just past the Equinox, heading toward Samhain, Halloween, Dia de Muertos, the thinning of the veil. Feel the sparkle? There's magic in the air. Ain't no better time to make some yourself.
It's ok to stop trying so hard to get it right. Just be yourself.
You are already fully awakened, fully aligned, fully attuned, completely realized, ascended and complete. Your perfect, immaculate, divine, sovereign self is here. Now. You always have been. And you are here to guide your human form, body and mind, on its journey. Want to meet your spirit guides? Stand at the mirror and look into your own eyes, Beloved. You signed up for yourself long before the miracle of your manifestation and birth. You created this very human form to be exactly the way you are, with the intention to guide your human self along the way. Remember who you are.
It's ok to stop worrying, Friend. It is safe to lay down your concern. You are never, ever alone. And everything - everything! - you experience is held in the perfect, loving awareness of the Beloved, which you are and have always been.
So shine a little light on this dear one you have created. Show her the compassionate Way. Give him the unconditional love that you are. When you stop worrying and trying to get it right all the time, he can let go a little bit more. And when she lets go into the knowing that everything is happening in service to her healing, she has space to accept herself, body and mind. Every feeling, every thought, every impulse is allowed to be - and every bit of it is here to help you. With your divine permission, you can see it all as a gift - every bit of it: the anger, the jealousy, the hopelessness, the doubt; the curiosity, the longing, the joy, the passion, the gratitude, the contentment, the accidents and intentions and addictions and collaborations; every time you put your foot in your mouth, every time you're bored, every time you rock your own world, every decision you get to make, every time you hurt, every time you love, every time you gloat and every time you experience humility - ALL of it is here for you to see and to help you accept, with love, your beloved human self on its perfect human journey.
Every piece of you is given permission to be, Friend. And thank you, thank you for being. You are precious, and you belong, and you are welcome here.
You are the light of pure consciousness.
And you, dear human, are loved.
Bowing deeply to your heart,
Creators, I've been hearing a lot of language lately that is calling in exactly the things people don't want. People are tossing around all kinds of "shoulds" and "have-to's." These words are some of the best you can choose to keep yourself stuck in an unwanted reality.
Your words are vibration. Each one vibrates at its own frequency. Some of these frequencies expand, and some of them contract. At the finest levels, everything - not just words and sound, but EVERYTHING is vibration, and everything affects everything else. With every word, you are transmitting signals to your emotional and energetic bodies, your psyche, and the universe.
Take a minute to feel what it feels like when you say these words (really, slow down and check this out):
No, should, hate, can't.
Now take a breath, and say these words, and feel how they feel:
Yes, choose, love, can.
With a deep bow to Dani Katz and her book "Word Up" (highly recommended!), I give you these few quantum languaging hacks:
This word orders you around, shutting down you as a person and actually turning the thing you "should" do invisible. "I should be eating healthier" - ugh - makes me feel bad about myself. Doesn't inspire me to eat healthier AT ALL. In fact, it makes me want chips and cookies immediately. Right? So here are some languaging options:
This bossy phrase denies your sovereignty and your free will. You don't "have to" do anything. You get to choose. You don't "have to" meditate every morning. You choose to meditate because it brings you peace. You don't "have to" go to work; you choose to go to work because you choose to have a steady income. Please try this instead:
So. You are officially invited to notice the words you're using, and to choose exquisite languaging that creates an expansive vibrational experience for you and everyone and everything.
Here's one more piece from Dani that I personally enjoy: when I hear myself using low-vibing language, I will say, right out loud: "Cancel, delete, erase." and then I say the words that intend my true intention. Give it a try. Yes you can!
Attention determines experience. We attract and affect and create what we focus on, and how we focus. It's all vibration, Friends. Every bit of everything. And our words are powerful creationary tools - ones that are so very easy to choose and use consciously. It's another part of this brilliant human design.
So many of you are at different levels of realizing that you are a creator. This piece of awakening comes to most in flashes and waves of understanding. It's true that with every thought, you are creating. With every feeling, you are creating. With your words - oh lordy, with your words, you are creating. And when you settle in to a sacred spaciousness to experience true intention - whew. Get ready.
You are powerful.
When you align with your Divine nature, you begin to see that EVERY being is an expression of the Divine, including you. They (you) may have suffered greatly, and that suffering may have caused them (you) to become fearful, judging, even hating, even violent - and still, they (you) are in truth an expression of the Christ Consciousness. From this place of alignment to Truth, forgiveness is reality. Compassion is real. What is created comes from our shared Source. And our new collective experience - one that is healthy and cooperative, infused with love, caring and equality - comes into being.
How are you creating?
It's time to set down your judgment. Let go of bitterness. Trash the habitual self-deprecating language.
You are worthy of love. So feel it, Friend.
You are not separate from anyone or anything. You affect everything.
It is time to create with compassion. Create with love. Create with forgiveness. A heart-guided reality is available to you, Beloved. It's leading us back to worldwide harmony.
Thank you for your curiosity, your persistence and your good work. Thank you for continuing to learn. What a bright future we are now sharing! You are powerful, Creator.
We toss around the word "ego" like it's the enemy, something to be overcome or transcended. But the ego, the personality, the small self, has been created by you for the very purpose of offering you the tools you need to remember who you truly are, and then a way to express that truth. The ego itself is not bad. Allowing the personality to rule your life with identification to past experiences, habitual ways of being, belief systems, appearances, material possessions, etc. stands in the way of your self realization. When you remember, realize, awaken to your Divine self, your personality doesn't leave; it begins to align with that Truth. And because you are a Creator, when your personality (which is how you interact with this human life) aligns with your Divine self, the world you experience also begins to align in this way.
You begin to see through the eyes of love. You do not deny any of your feelings; you welcome them as guests and teachers. You do not stop having a sense of humor; you rejoice in how funny you can be. You do not stop experiencing your sexuality; you embrace your desire and your pleasure as the Beloved. You do not drop out of society, renounce all material possessions, and become a breatharian (unless of course this is your true desire and purpose); you enjoy and appreciate and engage with life.
You might think, "I am a stylish person, I am in control, I am ashamed of my behavior, I am a successful businessperson, I am a cheery person, I am a facilitator, I am a sarcastic son-of-a-bitch, I am a masterful gardener, I am a yoga teacher" - but when you let go of these impermanent identifications and locate your knowing of who you are in your divinity, you simply cannot lose. The Truth of who you are remains, always. You become free, and wealthy beyond imagination. You know your wholeness. The I AM that is your Divine self is expressed through you, effortlessly, and you experience the gift of unconditional love that you truly are.
Here is one simple practice to help you relocate to Truth:
Give yourself some space, some quiet. Say aloud a list of things about you (it's important that you actually say these things out loud, not just in your head).
"I am a mother" (father, sister, etc.)
"I am a banker" (mindfulness teacher, grocery checkout person, travel agent, etc.)
"I am an attractive woman, I am a circus performer, I am an addict, I am the president of such-and-such" - let the list come out as it will, according to how you have known yourself.
Then end by saying aloud:
"I am not that."
I celebrate you in this moment on your journey of homecoming
And in this moment
And in this one.
You're doing such a good job.
So many gifts you keep giving yourself! And by gifts, I mean all these people and situations that keep showing up to trigger you. You are doing such a good job of calling them in to push your buttons. It's a meaningful gift from you to you: an invitation to bring awareness to your inner world. An invitation to love yourself more. May you be blessed with the courage to see what's really happening in you, beneath all your reactions.
Your awareness makes space for love, compassion and forgiveness--which helps you to identify and loosen the more intricately tangled pieces of your patterning. It’s multi-layered, this web of experience. Healing and reweaving our hearts' connection is intricate work. Know that you are not alone in your experience. What is in you, is in many. Wherever you are in this process, thank you, and bless you.
So give yourself some space. Breathe. Love yourself. Really, just say it out loud: I love you, ____. I love you. Shine that lovelight on everything you feel, everything you've been, everything you are. You are forgiven. You are learning. You are loved. May it feel safe for you to heal, friend. You are precious.
Thank you for your beautiful heart. I send you blessings for balance and courage, humor and reverence, grace and love. You got this.
Judgment. Ooh, that sticky monster and master of separation. I've been on both ends of it - the doing and the receiving. I get it. There's nothing like judging someone to help us stuff our insecurities about who we are. Nothing works like judgment to help us feel superior when we feel challenged, uneasy or afraid. Nothing like judging someone in order to maintain control, to squash our fear of what's unfamiliar. No better way to skip over our own uncomfortable feelings, or avoid looking at the parts of ourselves we're not so proud of.
The interesting thing about judgment is that not only does it shut out the one you judge... it harms you, as well. It shuts down your own heart. Puts a thorn in it. Makes your body tense, your breathing tight. It stops you from feeling love.
Another interesting thing is that, as a divine creator (yes you are), you are indeed drawing into your life exactly the people and situations you uniquely require to heal those painful feelings and return to love. You brought those triggering people into your life in order to see what needs healing in you, and to liberate your heart. You called them in to help you awaken to the truth of who you are - to help you practice loving, until love is all there is.
I want to share a tool with you. These are words channeled from Jeshua ben Joseph (Jesus) through the Shanti Christo Foundation (I'm not a Christian, and I'm not religious, but I sure do love and appreciate Jesus). Check this out:
I judge you not.
I extend forgiveness to myself for what I have created.
I embrace you, and I love you.
I free you to be yourself.
I bless you with the blessing of Christ.
Please, breathe. If you know you've been judging someone, bring them into your awareness, and with mindfulness, let these words wash through every bit of it:
I judge you not. I extend forgiveness to myself for what I have created. I embrace you, and I love you. I free you to be yourself. I bless you with the blessing of Christ.
Go on. Try it. You got this. Thank you.
Thank you, Friend! More and more, you are placing yourself in the situations and surroundings that best serve your heart and your purpose. The more you actively place yourself in high-vibration fields, the more you become who you really are. You’re seeing how low-vibration thoughts, images, ideas, food, conversation, media and relationships have a negative impact on your being. More and more, you’re spending time with the people and experiences that encourage you to feel, and to feel what's true for you. More and more, you’re choosing to immerse yourself in the energies that weave a bright and loving experience for you as an awakening human; and as you surrender to this field of your creation, you soften and connect more obviously with pure awareness.
You are beginning to really understand that you are a creator. Your life is a reflection of your inner experience and your unique expression. Thank you for doing your part to heal yourself, your relationships, and this planet. Threads of trauma and woundedness are being cut. The patterns that used to run as a result of those wounds are ready to be cleared out and replaced. What was frenetic is becoming calm. More and more, compassion and gratitude are flowing within and from you. The struggle for purpose gets replaced with openness and availability, acceptance and devotion. Congratulations on your abundance! Thank you, Friend, for your persistence. You are such a valuable part of the whole!
Fear rises up. I won't hold it. I breathe it out. Take in the good, clean air these life-giving trees are making for me.
I know these threads all too well: a tendency toward isolationism. Judgment. Competition. Separation. -isms. Control. A tendency to cut off what I perceive as having "hurt me", to avoid what's challenging. A tendency to build walls and box in to an unexamined life. These things I've seen, I've healed, am healing, in me.
So when the things happen, like Alabama - as they are happening more and more, almost every day, it seems, these past few years - my initial want is to flee. To leave the country, find a new bubble - or at least, find a quiet spot on a tropical beach... and what, hide? Numb myself with alcohol? I don't drink, so that's out. And the shining clarity of sobriety won't let me rest. Running away would mean living with denied truth lodged in my heart like a festering splinter that can't be found. The truth comes instantly, every time: Staying is unavoidable.
After that momentary desire to flee is this: Being in love and continuing to heal is all there is.
Heal it in me. Help others heal. Heal it in me. Serve.
These past few days I've watched the old play of wounding in me. In my personal life, parts that were healed were tested. I don't even listen to the news anymore; I know our connection, so I just watch what's happening in me, and I breathe, and I love and I forgive. I come home.
The process isn't always comfortable. Sometimes it stuns me, knocks me to the ground. But this good ground has her roots in me; she receives my hurts and holds me up. I am devoted. I learn. I return to love.
It's why I'm here. It's why I stay. It's why I return: to love.
Memory of the fires and of not being burned. Held captive by a man who knew me - felt the truth, longed to live there - but wrestled with his internalized fears that belonged to the men around him. Knowing the truth, but pulled by the lies they told about me, about the tribe of Woman. I was held captive. Hidden. Not burned. Protected. Grudgingly, painfully, vitally trusted. He understood my connection, had felt it himself, felt the deep divine love administered to his hurts and his heart through the portal of my earth-womb-heart-hands; but the fear taught him to control what was free and good, wild and alive; so I was punished, all the while holding space for his struggle. Rooting to the earth; disconnect impossible. Rooted and receiving - fortified, blessed - watching him long to rest in his heart's knowing, watching him trying not to fall in line with the fear and the lies, watching him hating himself for not being able to just be. He beat me to punish his own weakness, his confusion. But while others burned, he did not give me up. I tended my wounds and I tended him, holding space for his process, giving him the medicine of lifetimes. Seeing clearly in him the truth he longed to remember, beneath his anger and suffering. Loving him toward his return to freedom, to peace.
So I stay.
Flee, stay, and next comes the relief that I don't have children who will inherit this mess. And then the sharp ache for the little ones in my life and the lives of my friends. And then these children's children, and on and on. Grateful for their courage, their emotional intelligence, their independence. Praying they are taught above all else to listen, listen, listen to their hearts. To love and honor themselves and all beings.
And then the knowing: I inherit this. The current embodiment has never been and will not be my end.
I've been here before. I'll be here again. Healing, healing, healing. Rooted and receiving. Fortified and blessed, in service.
Love lives. Love lifts. Love is. I am here.
"I am resilient.
I trust the movement.
I negate the chaos,
Uplift the negative.
I'll show up at the table again and again and again.
I'll close my mouth and learn to listen."
-Resilient, Rising Appalachia
I'll be announcing dates for more Clearing Ceremonies next week! Space is limited to 6 participants.
I'm in awe of how this energy medicine gets designed specifically for each person. It's like they are a tapestry, and the medicine unties knots, repairs holes in the fabric, and weaves together the field... all perfectly timed and in the doses for which people are available.
This is not Reiki (although Reiki was my introduction to energy work), and it's not Pranic Healing, or anything else I've heard of - although the modalities all connect; they all have flavors of each other. The medicine that flows through me has not yet shared its name (although I'm starting to know who/what it is). It is energy. It is Spirit. It has its own intelligence. We collaborate, and together we serve. I continue to learn.
It's historically felt uncomfortable for me to market this work. I'd been doing it almost secretively for years. Last Fall, a wise man said to me: "Do you think God wants you to just sit around and hope people somehow magically know about this? I'm guessing the Universe wants people to receive this healing. You're going to have to tell them you exist." Smart, huh? (I can think of a few other healers who might take those words to heart.) So I opened my mouth about it, and now more and more people are accessing me and this medicine. More and more people are being helped; more and more people are receiving upgrades from this particular consciousness. I'm the human one in this sacred collaboration, so I'm doing the human part of spreading the word, finding the venues, creating the containers and delivering the medicine. I'm so grateful to be in this sacred partnership! Whoop whoop!
I'm happy to be going offline for the next few days. I'll have ceremony dates and info for you next week.
Sometimes you just know the answer. You don't know how you know, and what you know goes against what your mind may be telling you.
I wonder what it would be like to trust your knowing - to let your heart drive the decision making, even if it's unlike what you've always done. Even if it makes no sense. Even if there are a thousand reasons to make a different choice.
Because something in you just knows.
I wonder what it would be like to create a soft spot in the back seat, where your mind's reasoning can take a rest. Those parts of you deserve some love and gentleness; they've tried so hard to serve you over the years. And it's worked out pretty well, for the most part. You've certainly been kept safe - or at least, things have stayed the way they've been. Thank you, parts of you, for trying.
But there's something that's more... right. For you, I mean. You know what I mean.
Your heart knows the clearest path home. And it so loves to drive. Best driver on the road, you might say. Knows how to navigate around all that noise and traffic. Never bothers with detours. Takes you to profoundly familiar places you've never been.
So take a minute.
Breathe into it.
Your heart speaks your deepest truth.
It's what you know.
Yesterday I got this message from God:
Aowyn is my co-pilot.
Cool, huh? Try it. Fill in your own name and say it out loud:
_____ is my co-pilot.
Can you feel the truth here?
As you awaken, your perspective shifts so you see from the I Am, and your human self becomes the co-pilot - a learning, feeling, experiencing, physical expression that lovingly serves our shared divinity by living a heart-guided life.
We hear that word a lot these days - "awakening". It means a lot of things. Humans are waking up to our own shadows, the dark sides of our personalities. We're learning about how we’ve agreed to a life of discontent, and how we hold ourselves back from true freedom. We're letting go of identification with this or that. We're waking up to it all, and we're letting go. This is what I mean when I talk about "homecoming." We're coming home to our truest selves. This is the awakening process.
We're coming home to the truth of our divinity. As we self-realize or "awaken" to it, we begin to experience and live from that divine connection. As we each heal the wounds we carry - the things that have kept us believing in separation as reality, we start living from our heart. We come alive in new, timeless ways. We begin to heal our communities - the harms humans have done to one another out of a sense of separation, judgment, and I'm-right-you're-wrong. When we reconnect to our divine selves, we can love our human selves and each other. We stop needing to fill our emotional holes with addictions and consumerism and competition. We stop harming ourselves, each other and the planet, and we return to the harmony that is our true nature.
_____ is my co-pilot.
(Go on, give it a try. Right out loud.)
(Put it on your fridge. Say it often.)
_____ is my co-pilot. They’re aligning to become more heart-centered, more lovingly skillful, more surrendered to the ease and simplicity and flow of living in truth with What Is. A co-pilot who's realizing that they are a creator, and they're ready to create harmony in their own inner experience, their life, their family, their community, and the entire world.
And so it is. Blessed be.
Congratulations on your abundance! More and more, you are investing in the awakening of your own heart, knowing that you are responsible for your own evolution. Bless your curiosity, your willingness to listen and to honor differences. Thank you for not needing to be right all the time. Thank you for courageously shining light into your own darkness in order to root out and heal the beliefs that separate you from your true self and others. You're beginning to choose acceptance over judgment, truth over lies, love over fear. May you be mindful, and may you practice being gentle with yourself. Remember: no shame, no blame - just clarity. May you accept and forgive and emerge aligned, with integrity and dignity, more honest and more humble and more truly powerful. Thank you for doing your part for our collective healing. May you embody the knowing that we are all connected. We are the One. We hold the wisdom and the guidance to heal our very DNA, all beings, and this planet. May you be a graceful beacon of truth for others’ unique homecoming. I give thanks for your courage and your healing. I give thanks for the ancestral warrior within. I give thanks for the light and the shadows, and the balancing of all systems. Bless you, Friend. You’re powerful, and you are doing this, in your perfect way. I'm so thankful to be here, now, with you. With delight and gratitude, I say: Aho!
of self-denial when I took responsibility for the rape of my body. Call up the confusion, the lack of understanding. Call up the precious INNOCENCE. Call up the beautiful, trusting parts of me, and the ways my trusting self was violated and betrayed and dishonored, and let the sorrow and the grief of that wash through every part of my being. Help me to see and feel the injustice done to my younger self, and help me to protect and hold that younger me from my healed place of felt wholeness and empowerment, where I now live. Hecate, show me what I need to see and help me to FEEL IT ALL and cast it into the flames, fueling the RAGE that propels me to action. Call it up and keep it burning through this long night. I will continue this sacred process of remembrance. I will continue to speak my experience, adding my voice to the many, as we join together in our rage to REMOVE FROM POWER those who carry the lineage of fear that seeks to mock, accuse, shame, blame and disempower women. I add my voice to those that shine light on the perpetrators of sexual violation. I stand solidly as proof that HEALING IS POSSIBLE, and I offer myself and my life experience as an example, an inspiration and an instrument of healing.
We are gaining numbers and power and momentum, calling from the heart of Sisterhood to all women: YOU ARE NECESSARY. We call you home, to stand with us. We have been violated and disbelieved, mocked and judged, accused and silenced. We've been burned at the stake, in our homes, in our churches, on the streets and in the courtroom. But as more and more of us see and FEEL and remember the fear-driven sentencing and executions so many of us have endured, WE ADD LIFE ENERGY - DIRECTLY FROM THE FIRES THAT HAVE BURNED US - to the growing bonfire beneath this cauldron of transformation we are now stirring. Thank you, Hecate, for this bright illumination at the dark crossroads of this battle.
May I allow the energy of Venus Retrograde to help me feel into the darkest corners of my entire ancestry, where I may have disbelieved, ignored, shamed, avoided, disempowered or harmed myself or other women. Stand by me, Hecate, as I feel the pain of my own betrayal and wail its primal, healing power into the heart of all living things. Help us all to remember that women birth life into this world; we are the keepers of the heart and the hearth; we are the sustainers. Remind us that our VITALITY is the very rhythm that moves this world. We are the beating heart that connects all humans to our Mother Gaia. From this grounded place, we HOWL the pain of betrayal at the moon until the vibration of our collective sound cleanses and heals every one of us. We remember, we forgive, and together we stand.
To the women who have forgotten they are members of the Sisterhood, you who have taken on the beliefs of those who deny the innate power in women, you who have forgotten, denied or given away your own power, I shine Hecate's light and say: Open your eyes and see your sisters. We are here, we are all different but very much the same. We are ALIVE, and we are joining together. Share your experience of isolation and let your tears of suffering blend with all others to become a powerful ocean - because Mama, we move together as One, and that includes YOU. You are not alone. You have a heart, a mind, a body that belongs only to you. You do not have to believe what they have told you. Remember who you are. YOU MATTER. You are powerful. You are welcomed and wanted and honored. You are seen and held with compassion, no matter the mistakes you think you've made - just as we all practice holding ourselves with compassion, no matter the mistakes we think we've made. Every choice you have made has been in service to your sacred self and your needs, whether your actions have been aligned and empowering or misaligned and regretted. Thank you for doing your best to honor you. With compassion and reverence, we remember, we forgive, and we invite integrity and full alignment in every woman, to join together and stand in the shining power of this sacred tribe of sisters. Come home.
Gracefully supported by the Goddess Hecate, I shine the light of transformation into my own darkness, my own pain, and I hold loving space for anyone who needs to be seen. Call on me. I'm here for you. I'll cry with you. I'll scream with you. I'll hold you and all of it with spacious, expansive love. I offer the truth of Divine reflection. Together we see, feel, heal and change this world. We hold the vision of our future: nonviolent leadership and citizenship that honor and co-create safety, equality, respect and freedom for women and all beings.
Thank you, Hecate, for blessing us with your steadfast, graceful, enlightening assistance.
And so it is.
Mythologies and stories, deities and energies, multidimensional beings, ancestors and revolutionaries of the past and present, and all guides and guardians who stand with us in the highest good of all: Thank you for uniting and joining us as we navigate this momentous death/rebirth, to aid in the healing and transformation that is required and is happening, every step of the way. We welcome and thank the ascended masters of mindfulness, love and healing. We welcome and thank you who shine light into the darkest places for the sake of our understanding. Thank you for your protection. We call on the warriors who will firmly establish in us the strength to fight. We give thanks for the brilliant light of Truth as it radiates from our hearts. We give thanks for our shining love and its joyful, passionate, creative expression. We invite inspiration, courage and manifestation of the highest good from those who will help us to create, midwife, birth, mother and shepherd our new way of being into this culture and the world. We thank you for your assistance, and welcome you to the circle.
Where to begin with this RAGE searing my hands to the keyboard?
I begin with gratitude for the INTENSITY of this phase in our evolution. I offer thanks to the Conscious Awareness and the Universe for our long-awaited arrival in this moment. We started our cry, our plea, our intentions and prayers for change a long, long time ago. It’s taken a long time (in our human perception) for the Universe to line everything up just right, for the many things to happen that have needed to happen to bring us right here right now, where we FINALLY get to experience the tipping point and bring humanity back home to our essential nature that is LOVE - caring, compassion, fairness, kindness, respect, reverence - through LOVING JUSTICE.
The lovingness, respect and integrity that is being shown - this is the Way of Women. We will take DOWN these institutions, these lies, these hateful, fearful, ruinous, life-taking beliefs and ways of being, with a fierce LOVE like nothing you have ever seen. As my dear Friendship says: You’re feeling uncomfortable about all this? Uncomfortable is a GIFT.
I am harnessing my anger. I am now asking Spirit and my highest self for direction and instruction. I am ready for my next assignment. I am willing and able to be the Warrior I Am in whatever way I’m meant to be. For now, I’m FEELING and I’m SPEAKING. I am SUPPORTING WOMEN AND MEN. I am WRITING. I am JOINING WITH COMMUNITY. I am PRAYING and I am LISTENING and I am STANDING POWERFULLY, thanks to the shining grace of the Divine Feminine, supported by and in cooperation with the Divine Masculine, while we ROAR our deepest NO! WE WILL NOT ALLOW the degradation, the diminishment, the silencing, the violence toward and blaming of women to continue.
I now stand with gratitude in this most powerful light, this holy corridor of sacred fire, guarded and guided and inspired by our loving Kali Ma, the aspect of the Divine Mother whose energy destroys what does not serve our hearts, preserves what is loving, and gives fresh life to all ways and to all beings. Kali has shown up on my behalf through the years, lighting up my own shadows so I could see, so I could be taken through certain death and revived to new inner worlds of truth, empowerment and service. She has brandished her life-giving swords on my behalf more than once. KALI, with deepest gratitude for your healing work, I now call you to service. Please destroy in me all that lives in fear and all that would do harm. Help me to see, with loving forgiveness, how I have participated in the oppression and harm of any and all beings. Please take me through the fire in a way that is complete, with purity of heart and vision and with powerful self-love, and birth me into the full power of light and consciousness in service to the complete healing of all beings. Thank you for working through me, for guiding my sword to where it can now make the most change in loving service to WOMEN, to TRANS MEN and NONBINARY PEOPLE, and to all beings in this country and around the world, including men, who have suffered at the hands of the patriarchy and its fear. May the power that has surfaced as a result of this fear be completely destroyed and replaced with the healing wisdom of our ancestors - those who have come before, those who are now and those who are yet to be. May I be a healing and life-giving instrument of love and peace in every breath, every sound, every movement and every action I take.
I claim these names: WARRIOR. HEALER. TEACHER. MEDICINE WOMAN. LIGHTWORKER. CHANGE AGENT.
When we have seen all we need to see in order to bring about the complete destruction of what harms not only women but all of humanity, you can rest assured that, hand in hand with my Sisters, locally and globally, I will be here to heal, rebirth and rebuild what remains. With love, compassion, remembrance and forgiveness. I serve as one of many midwives for the beautiful, heart-centered, love-based creations of mind, body and Spirit that are now on the way for humanity.
And so it is.
There is nothing more freeing than the gift of being lovingly seen and accepted exactly as we are. Nothing compares to the clarity of our hearts - or the feeling of being invited to listen to our heart’s wisdom by someone who cares. To be who we are, by following our hearts – it’s life changing. It may be the greatest gift we could possibly give or receive.
What would it be like if we held our friends that way – with spaciousness, free from judgment or comparison, with a gentle, steadfast clarity and presence like light?
What would it be like if we held our family members that way – if we stood gently with them and allowed them to be, however they are?
What would it be like if we held our enemies like that – with acceptance, with trust in every heart’s essential truth, with a spaciousness that allowed the heart to be seen?
What if we made space for the people who hurt us – the ones who hurt our families, our communities, our planet – what if we gave them space to return to love? What if they received it?
What if we held our own hearts with pure, humble gratitude and surrender?
What kind of expression would emerge?
What profound joy?
What peace among humans?
How expansive could our love become?
What would it be like to be held like that?
You are perfect exactly as you are.
I'll just stay here with you, if that's ok. You can just feel into your heart.
Maybe some ease is available to you... maybe there are some blockages.
Whatever is there is ok with me.
There’s nothing you have to do right now, except be.
I'll just be here with you.
What would it be like to know what someone else experiences
when you let your heart be your guide? Like this:
When you listen to your heart and take care of your heart’s needs, something in me relaxes.
I breathe more deeply. I feel peace.
When you allow your heart to guide you,
I feel an ok-ness.
That’s how it feels to me when you honor your heart.
If you would like, invite the space in which to be lovingly seen.
Invite the Seers.
You are perfect exactly as you are.
Bless you. Thank you.
If you can hold clear, loving space for others to hear their hearts, you are called to service.
It's time to offer your spacious presence in service
to each and every living thing, and to those yet to come.
Time to let yourself be changed by the act of witnessing another's truth.
Bless you, and thank you.
We join together as partners in this great and powerful gift.
To give is to receive. To receive is to give.
All are equal participants, equally valuable and necessary in the healing, the awakening,
the profoundly connected and widespread ascension that is underway.
Givers and receivers. Every one essential.
This is where our salvation, our revolution, and our evolution live.
Our hearts are the Knowers. Our hearts are the Medicine. Our hearts speak Truth.
When we live with our hearts as our guides,
when we see each others' hearts are leading,
we let go
and we heal the world.
This post was inspired by Peter, and by Friendship.
When we are at peace with what is, when we remember how to honor our hearts, when we know how we feel, when we feel our feelings, when we breathe it through - when we breathe;
When the thing we incarnated in order to heal - that thing we worked with for so many years, and finally there came lasting spaciousness - when the thing we incarnated in order to heal is healed;
When the layers have been peeled away until the core is gently revealed and lovingly seen, honored with acceptance and Love from and for Thy Divine Self, from and for Thy Human Self -
Then we know that everything is truly ok.
We find the place where divine purpose meets human function.
It looks nothing like what we thought it would look like.
It is better than everything we could not previously conceive of, but can now.
It is more true, more full, more right, more simple than even that.
We are released from our armor to reveal our strategies of protection, our wounds and our misconceptions, our vulnerability, our growing clarity; we trust and we persist with our healing, and we stay in our relief and our gratitude for our Light and our Love. We feel the depths of grief and the heights of bliss, and it is all the same. We breathe it all through.
We live in a human body as the divine flow.
We see. And we accept and we receive the blessing of every single thing we experience. Our existence is the healer, the teacher. We let go in order to truly live, and we bow with humble gratitude for the gift of our surrender. We generate, cultivate, and radiate Love. With our healed and healing existence in the here/now, and by living a heart-guided life, we manifest a new world for future generations. Here and now - across the mountains and valleys of duality and disconnect, from within the rubble of evolution's destruction phase - we see the light of homecoming.
The Return. A Remembering. For All.
We align with Source, which has been in us all along. The living, breathing process of becoming is innately ecstatic and, finally, obvious. Available and generous. Magical. And normal.
Our alignment is a middle-ground Medicine Way of Being.
This Way holds the Heart as the Queen, the Jewel, the Divine, the Source of All Blessings, the True and Trusted and Only Guide. It is the Medicine Way, the Way of the Medicine that we are and that heals all.
We exist in this Way where whatever we truly want or want to create, we can and do create.
With deep respect, we are creating a new world - by following our heart's guidance, which is the guidance of Love, which is the Source that lives in every single one of us and will always show us our truth.
We trust our hearts. and so we move in any direction we are pointed.
With a Presence that heals. In wider and wider circles.
One by One.
We release the constructs, the imagined boundaries of our minds.
We are open, and we listen, and we witness the simple brilliance of finally and always following our hearts.
We take every opportunity to share our Love.
The Medicine Way is alive and wondrous, even in the dark.
Its perfection amplifies our devotion to it.
We live mindfully; we listen to our hearts' knowing, and we manifest its intention.
Anything that appears to divert the path is a blessing that makes the road even more expansive as we hold space, give space, invite space, and bring Light to the space, whatever space we're in.
We integrate, and we align.
It looks everything and nothing like what we thought it would when we began to know our purpose. It can look like anything we want; our loving presence is our service.
We are here to be.
Not all the time,