of self-denial when I took responsibility for the rape of my body. Call up the confusion, the lack of understanding. Call up the precious INNOCENCE. Call up the beautiful, trusting parts of me, and the ways my trusting self was violated and betrayed and dishonored, and let the sorrow and the grief of that wash through every part of my being. Help me to see and feel the injustice done to my younger self, and help me to protect and hold that younger me from my healed place of felt wholeness and empowerment, where I now live. Hecate, show me what I need to see and help me to FEEL IT ALL and cast it into the flames, fueling the RAGE that propels me to action. Call it up and keep it burning through this long night. I will continue this sacred process of remembrance. I will continue to speak my experience, adding my voice to the many, as we join together in our rage to REMOVE FROM POWER those who carry the lineage of fear that seeks to mock, accuse, shame, blame and disempower women. I add my voice to those that shine light on the perpetrators of sexual violation. I stand solidly as proof that HEALING IS POSSIBLE, and I offer myself and my life experience as an example, an inspiration and an instrument of healing.
We are gaining numbers and power and momentum, calling from the heart of Sisterhood to all women: YOU ARE NECESSARY. We call you home, to stand with us. We have been violated and disbelieved, mocked and judged, accused and silenced. We've been burned at the stake, in our homes, in our churches, on the streets and in the courtroom. But as more and more of us see and FEEL and remember the fear-driven sentencing and executions so many of us have endured, WE ADD LIFE ENERGY - DIRECTLY FROM THE FIRES THAT HAVE BURNED US - to the growing bonfire beneath this cauldron of transformation we are now stirring. Thank you, Hecate, for this bright illumination at the dark crossroads of this battle.
May I allow the energy of Venus Retrograde to help me feel into the darkest corners of my entire ancestry, where I may have disbelieved, ignored, shamed, avoided, disempowered or harmed myself or other women. Stand by me, Hecate, as I feel the pain of my own betrayal and wail its primal, healing power into the heart of all living things. Help us all to remember that women birth life into this world; we are the keepers of the heart and the hearth; we are the sustainers. Remind us that our VITALITY is the very rhythm that moves this world. We are the beating heart that connects all humans to our Mother Gaia. From this grounded place, we HOWL the pain of betrayal at the moon until the vibration of our collective sound cleanses and heals every one of us. We remember, we forgive, and together we stand.
To the women who have forgotten they are members of the Sisterhood, you who have taken on the beliefs of those who deny the innate power in women, you who have forgotten, denied or given away your own power, I shine Hecate's light and say: Open your eyes and see your sisters. We are here, we are all different but very much the same. We are ALIVE, and we are joining together. Share your experience of isolation and let your tears of suffering blend with all others to become a powerful ocean - because Mama, we move together as One, and that includes YOU. You are not alone. You have a heart, a mind, a body that belongs only to you. You do not have to believe what they have told you. Remember who you are. YOU MATTER. You are powerful. You are welcomed and wanted and honored. You are seen and held with compassion, no matter the mistakes you think you've made - just as we all practice holding ourselves with compassion, no matter the mistakes we think we've made. Every choice you have made has been in service to your sacred self and your needs, whether your actions have been aligned and empowering or misaligned and regretted. Thank you for doing your best to honor you. With compassion and reverence, we remember, we forgive, and we invite integrity and full alignment in every woman, to join together and stand in the shining power of this sacred tribe of sisters. Come home.
Gracefully supported by the Goddess Hecate, I shine the light of transformation into my own darkness, my own pain, and I hold loving space for anyone who needs to be seen. Call on me. I'm here for you. I'll cry with you. I'll scream with you. I'll hold you and all of it with spacious, expansive love. I offer the truth of Divine reflection. Together we see, feel, heal and change this world. We hold the vision of our future: nonviolent leadership and citizenship that honor and co-create safety, equality, respect and freedom for women and all beings.
Thank you, Hecate, for blessing us with your steadfast, graceful, enlightening assistance.
And so it is.
Mythologies and stories, deities and energies, multidimensional beings, ancestors and revolutionaries of the past and present, and all guides and guardians who stand with us in the highest good of all: Thank you for uniting and joining us as we navigate this momentous death/rebirth, to aid in the healing and transformation that is required and is happening, every step of the way. We welcome and thank the ascended masters of mindfulness, love and healing. We welcome and thank you who shine light into the darkest places for the sake of our understanding. Thank you for your protection. We call on the warriors who will firmly establish in us the strength to fight. We give thanks for the brilliant light of Truth as it radiates from our hearts. We give thanks for our shining love and its joyful, passionate, creative expression. We invite inspiration, courage and manifestation of the highest good from those who will help us to create, midwife, birth, mother and shepherd our new way of being into this culture and the world. We thank you for your assistance, and welcome you to the circle.
Where to begin with this RAGE searing my hands to the keyboard?
I begin with gratitude for the INTENSITY of this phase in our evolution. I offer thanks to the Conscious Awareness and the Universe for our long-awaited arrival in this moment. We started our cry, our plea, our intentions and prayers for change a long, long time ago. It’s taken a long time (in our human perception) for the Universe to line everything up just right, for the many things to happen that have needed to happen to bring us right here right now, where we FINALLY get to experience the tipping point and bring humanity back home to our essential nature that is LOVE - caring, compassion, fairness, kindness, respect, reverence - through LOVING JUSTICE.
The lovingness, respect and integrity that is being shown - this is the Way of Women. We will take DOWN these institutions, these lies, these hateful, fearful, ruinous, life-taking beliefs and ways of being, with a fierce LOVE like nothing you have ever seen. As my dear Friendship says: You’re feeling uncomfortable about all this? Uncomfortable is a GIFT.
I am harnessing my anger. I am now asking Spirit and my highest self for direction and instruction. I am ready for my next assignment. I am willing and able to be the Warrior I Am in whatever way I’m meant to be. For now, I’m FEELING and I’m SPEAKING. I am SUPPORTING WOMEN AND MEN. I am WRITING. I am JOINING WITH COMMUNITY. I am PRAYING and I am LISTENING and I am STANDING POWERFULLY, thanks to the shining grace of the Divine Feminine, supported by and in cooperation with the Divine Masculine, while we ROAR our deepest NO! WE WILL NOT ALLOW the degradation, the diminishment, the silencing, the violence toward and blaming of women to continue.
I now stand with gratitude in this most powerful light, this holy corridor of sacred fire, guarded and guided and inspired by our loving Kali Ma, the aspect of the Divine Mother whose energy destroys what does not serve our hearts, preserves what is loving, and gives fresh life to all ways and to all beings. Kali has shown up on my behalf through the years, lighting up my own shadows so I could see, so I could be taken through certain death and revived to new inner worlds of truth, empowerment and service. She has brandished her life-giving swords on my behalf more than once. KALI, with deepest gratitude for your healing work, I now call you to service. Please destroy in me all that lives in fear and all that would do harm. Help me to see, with loving forgiveness, how I have participated in the oppression and harm of any and all beings. Please take me through the fire in a way that is complete, with purity of heart and vision and with powerful self-love, and birth me into the full power of light and consciousness in service to the complete healing of all beings. Thank you for working through me, for guiding my sword to where it can now make the most change in loving service to WOMEN, to TRANS MEN and NONBINARY PEOPLE, and to all beings in this country and around the world, including men, who have suffered at the hands of the patriarchy and its fear. May the power that has surfaced as a result of this fear be completely destroyed and replaced with the healing wisdom of our ancestors - those who have come before, those who are now and those who are yet to be. May I be a healing and life-giving instrument of love and peace in every breath, every sound, every movement and every action I take.
I claim these names: WARRIOR. HEALER. TEACHER. MEDICINE WOMAN. LIGHTWORKER. CHANGE AGENT.
When we have seen all we need to see in order to bring about the complete destruction of what harms not only women but all of humanity, you can rest assured that, hand in hand with my Sisters, locally and globally, I will be here to heal, rebirth and rebuild what remains. With love, compassion, remembrance and forgiveness. I serve as one of many midwives for the beautiful, heart-centered, love-based creations of mind, body and Spirit that are now on the way for humanity.
And so it is.