It's been a mix this past week, huh? Will be for a while longer.
Waves of irritability, anger, frustration and impatience are swirling. You might feel short tempered or foggy - or speechless, but about to burst. Best thing to do is take some space. Breathe. Retreat and regroup. Slow it all down.
If you've already put your foot in your mouth, it's ok. Repair is possible. Just breathe...
... because the other piece to this phase is a profound sense of peace, clarity and stillness. An inner refinement. An expansion of your skill set.
Let the wild mix of thoughts and emotions be in your cauldron. Look at it. What's old and outdated? What story are you telling yourself about yourself that just isn't true? What feels unfamiliar, like it belongs to someone else or doesn't fit with your personal chemistry? What are you doing/saying/thinking that's actually stopping you from being the You you want to be? How are you limiting your life experience? Are you blaming others for your experience? How are you harming yourself or others with your thoughts, words or behavior? What can you let go of right now?
It's all energy. Your thoughts are energy. Your emotions are energy. Your body itself is energy. And you are a powerful creator (so much more powerful than you know right now!). You are able to release toxic energy. It's much easier than you might think. Create an opening at the crown or the root. Let it be a place of release. Make a request of your DNA (or your Spirit, or your heart) for a detox of mental/emotional/physical poison - in a way that is viable and comfortable, and in a way that does no harm to any other being. Thank you.
This is a time of transformation and creation. Use your mindfulness. Take space. Be gentle.
***Practice the new.***
You got this.
You don't have to try so hard.
I know it's easy to look outside yourself - to read the books and listen to the podcasts and take the courses - all with the notion that you should be "getting somewhere" or achieving something, some kind of higher ground or enlightened state. Sometimes there's so much reaching that it feels like you can't keep up, like you're trying to run up a slippery hill... and the information just doesn't seem to sink in. Like you understand it, but you don't actually experience the healing or upleveling happening in yourself. It's exhausting. It promotes the feeling of "not enough."
All that trying can really restrict your body, your breath - even your thinking gets tight.
But you don't have to do any of that.
You can just sit still. You already have all that you're reaching for. It's ok to just settle in and let it be. Let yourself be. The clarity you seek exists within you, and you can experience it if you only let go the trying. And from here? From this spacious place? YOUR truth is revealed.
There's no need to go outside yourself to find it. You ARE it. Always have been.
The reason people have success when they come see me is because my work is experiential. What that means is that I'm here to help you experience the state of being you're longing for. We'll talk about what's up for you, but I'm not going to give advice. I'm here to steer you toward actually having the experience inside yourself that you want to be having. So rather than anxiety, peace. Rather than tension, calm. Rather than doubt, knowing. Rather than judgment, acceptance. Rather than fear, love. Along the way, there may be healing that needs to happen - or detachment, or expression, or forgiveness, or grieving. Maybe boundaries need to be created. Or maybe you are longing to be truly seen, and being seen is what allows the shift.
Along with that, I deliver energy medicine that helps you to release the energetic patterns of stuckness that held you in the unwanted experiences.
Often my clients feel like I'm working some kind of magic on them, but really I'm just guiding them into a felt experience of their own true selves - and helping them practice being there, so it can become a way of being. I help weed out what's not serving you, and shepherd your awareness toward the You you want to be (and already are, even if you can't feel it right now).
You are already whole.