Waking From the 2020 Dream
I feel like I'm waking up from a dream.
Not because I'm moving through the wobbly weirdness of reentry after two weeks in Mexico - although there is that. It's been emotionally bumpy coming back into the familiar reality of life in Central Oregon. For sure.
But the "familiar" reality of life is different, now that I've traveled for the first time since Covid hit. My experience of reality has changed.
I chose to surrender and accept many things in order to travel by plane to another country - rather than resist or harden against them - so I could receive the gifts of the glorious sun and the comforting beach and the living ocean. Travel required a refined strengthening AND a softening, which ultimately changed my interface with reality. I reintegrated Trust at a very deep level.
This is how we create, right? We make internal shifts (mental, emotional, energetic) to affect our reality and the way we experience life.
Traveling made me break through the invisible, unintentional border I'd created between myself and Living Life. I did not know I'd created such a thing.
But it makes sense. I'd taken fear in and released it out a number of times in the past year. I'm not surprised that hints of it were tangled in my field. I'm human. It happens.
Today I feel free. My belly is soft. I feel stretched out. I feel safe. I feel nourished. I feel empowered. I feel ready. I feel excited. I feel energetically hydrated. I feel like an explorer in entirely new territory, thanks to the 2020 birth canal.
I highly recommend getting mindful to discover any borders you've created inside yourself this past year. I invite you to soften them and take a step across into your own new territory. I invite you to expand your thinking or do something that has seemed off limits but can actually be experienced while staying in personal alignment. You are powerful. You are a creator. Life is short. You are here to LIVE. And I'm available if you need support navigating these waters.
Your Perfect Awakening
Thank you for every spacious breath you gift yourself while you see what is here. Thank you for seeing how you participate in the creation of your personal reality and our shared reality - within yourself, in your relationships, throughout this country and around the world. Thank you for forgiving yourself when you look inside and see fear, violence or hatred directed toward yourself or others. It's ok; this fear is not who you are, it's only something you inherited or learned along the way. You have the ability to heal completely and realize true freedom; you were born for it. Every part of you is perfectly designed. And since you are a microcosm of the macrocosm - and everything affects everything - I thank you for firing up your conscious participation in the complex, fascinating, miraculous creation of you and all things.
May compassion wash through every part of your being, inspiring complete healing, until you remember who you are and stand solidly in your own perfect light - free from the shackles of us-against-them, me-against-them, me-against-myself - and may that light become your one and only creative tool. May you exist peacefully, with gratitude, in the never-ending flow of pure love that you are. May love guide you in all things, for the rest of your life and every life you live. May you speak love into being.
Bless you across all space and time. Thank you for being and for doing what you came here to do.
You are so powerful, Friend.
Your power is worthy of your tending. Worthy of reverence.
I love you.
Thank You for Anchoring Love
Thank you for helping to anchor love on this planet. At a time when so many, with so many differing opinions and needs, are standing against others, I thank you for standing for the light and for making that a priority. Your efforts are essential to the awakening of humanity. Thank you for your diligence. Your work to maintain a high vibration, your radiant heart, your prayers for peace, love and known oneness - in collaboration with millions of others who are doing the same - is bringing unity consciousness to balance the polarities at a time when the scales are heavy with the weight of perceived and created separation. Your work as a lightkeeper is necessary. Many people do not yet understand this, and that's ok. You are working on a different level (not higher or lower, better or worse, but different), and it is exactly what you were born into this body at this time to do. Your skills as an anchor of light are required. So thank you for going full force at this time, Friend.
Thank you for Being.
Art by Cameron Gray
Bless you and thank you, Friend, for your good work.
It's not an accident that you were born into this pivotal time in humanity. You are here to help this transition.
And there's no time like the present. Your highest potential is waiting for you in each and every moment. You can feel it. You may not always choose to move through your experience with your eyes open, but sometimes... maybe even a lot of the time, these days... you do. Friend, I will say again what you already know: the time is now. The change you wish to see is yours to activate.
Thank you for learning that judging other people is a form of self-slavery. Thank you for realizing that standing strongly against something, no matter how heinous, only gives your power to that other, and reinforces the experience of division. Thank you for instead standing for love and justice. You are invited to live as a beacon of light: a living, breathing demonstration of the thing you want for yourself and for the world. Thank you, Friend, for committing to your own freedom. Thank you for claiming your power.
Thank you for every time you show up. Thank you for feeling your feelings - and when you don't know how you feel, thanks for sticking with your experience until you do. Thank you for saying what's real for you. For being vulnerable. For being witnessed. Thank you for asking for support. Thank you for making your way here, wherever "here" is for you right now. You are courageous. Yes. You are.
Thank you for not only seeing the addictions that keep you bound, but for taking steps to cut those cords. You are not meant to give your power away to anyone or anything. You are meant for freedom and sovereignty. They are yours to claim.
Thank you for closing the laptop and turning off the phone in order to engage the living experience that is designed by your very own soul to help you wake up in every way. It may be painful, it may be lonely, it may be the most gorgeous thing you've ever seen. It may require grief, or change, or forgiveness, or acceptance. It surely requests creativity, Creator. Whatever is in your life, it's here in service to you, offering countless opportunities to acknowledge, accept, let go, feel, love yourself, align with the wisdom of your very own soul, and make a practice of devoted service to the constant creation of your brilliant, awakening human existence.
Now is the time to align with your highest potential, which will allow you to align with the highest potential in others. This is why you are here, now. One by one, we remember our internal compass and collectively turn the tides back toward Love. Harmony. Unity. Peace.
I am bowing deeply to the luminosity of your infinite soul, and to the perfectly designed human that you are. You are important.
I am shining a thousand blessings into your beautiful heart.
Hello. Just a reminder that no matter how you are in this moment, this week, this pandemic, this year, you are exactly where you are meant to be. Go ahead and zoom out for a minute. Watch the weaving of your soul through lifetimes - there are so many. So many. The one you are experiencing right now - this perspective, right here, right now reading this - is a perfect part of the tapestry of your soul. You are one perfect facet of the multifaceted jewel that you are. Your experience is exactly woven into the entire fabric - it is necessary, in order for the rest of the fabric to be.
Your main job right now is to find your steadiness. Know what keeps you grounded and awake, and do those practices. Find your joy. Know what delights you, what inspires you, what makes you laugh, and be in those experiences. Be in the sunlight, the moonlight, the starlight, the fresh air, the waters. Be with the trees, the cactus, the life that is all around you. Consider the long game, and build your inner resource. You have the tools. And if it feels like you don't have the tools (you lost your job so you can't afford the gym so you can't do your usual work out), do the best you can (jumping jacks in the living room and lifting bags of rice). Let your mind go; the Way knows the way.
I love you.
Art: Transcending Duality by Helena Arturaleza
You Are The Medicine
Thank you, Friend, for all you are doing to take care of yourself.
I have a long message for you. See if you can stick with it.
Never before have we seen such worldwide upheaval. We’ve been in the thick of it since March, witnessing and experiencing varying degrees of fear, judgment, anger, blame and shame: the divisive arsenal of a reality that promotes a belief that we are separate from our inherent Truth, one another and the earth. Turn on any popular news source and you’re immediately plugged into it. Keep it on, and you’re altered by it - you can tell by how it makes you feel.
In any moment, no matter where you are - your kitchen, a park, the grocery store, right now reading this - you have the ability to access the infinite intelligence that lives in your very own heart. You, Friend, would not be here without your body. Bless you for choosing to incarnate here, now! Your miraculous body includes a heart that offers a direct line to the godself within. In your heart you have unending access to your divine Soul. Here, there is true wisdom. Here, peace. Clarity. Knowing. Resource. Guidance. Sovereignty.
So. Which intelligence are you following?
Very often we look outside ourselves for direction. We look to the media. We look to our companions. We look to religion to tell us who we are, and what our relationship is with the Divine. And while all of these external sources (including this writing) might point toward something meaningful, YOU are the angelic voice within, the guide who leads with ancient knowing. Resting awareness in your heart plugs you in to the direct experience of Truth. It is how you jump out of one reality and into another.
It’s easy to get hooked by what’s happening outside yourself. Easy to let the ego drive your experience. But it is not inevitable. You are not lost. You are not even confused, despite being led to believe you are.
You are Divine Incarnate. Your only “sin”, ever, is forgetting who you really are and losing awareness of your soul. Luckily, there are ancient tools within your reach to help you remember, and to plug your antennae into an ineffable intelligence. For example:
Right now, you can slow your pace of reading, get out of your head and take a deep breath. Are you with me? Go on, try. Why not, eh? This will only take a moment (and this newsletter is almost done). Slow everything down. Soften your jaw. Soften your eyes.
Now inhale, all the way ~ and exhale completely. Slowly, slowly. Now take your time with this: acknowledge that you are in a body.
Again: Inhale, deeply. Exhale. And with easy, natural breathing, rest awareness in your heartspace, in your chest. Bring your attention here, in your heart.
Inhale ~ and exhale. Feel your inner spaciousness. Resting awareness in your heart, breathe easy, and smile slightly.
Now say: I invite grace. Let it be.
The vast stillness of love is in you; it is you. Close your eyes and breathe, and allow the experience to bloom.
If you weren't able to be present, it's ok. There's a reason it's called a practice.
This is the shift we're making, the choice point of this momentous time. Which do you choose: fear and separation, or love and unity? What is creating you? With what are you creating?
I am not suggesting you stick your head in the sand. I am not suggesting you condone hateful behavior or harmful policies. I am not suggesting you stop feeling all your feelings. What I am suggesting is that you unplug your being from sources of fear and separation, and plug yourself into sources of love. Locate in your infinitely intelligent heart. Move from there. Can you imagine if everyone in the world did this? A healer I know once said that if all people breathed love together just once, the oceans would instantly heal.
Together we create a new way for humanity. Not by reading up on it, not by thinking about doing it, but by being it. By actively letting love guide us in every relationship and every reality we participate in. It is a choice. A practice.
When you source love, you immediately disconnect from the reality that is working hard every day to press fear into your system.
And everything changes.
Let your inner technology be known and activated.
Let consciousness be your Way.
Let discernment be your tool.
Let your heart guide.
I am sending a thousand blessings into your beautiful heart.
It's All Ok
Revealing times, huh?
You've been collecting more and more light within your being. Thank you for being available for it. This powerful light radiates through you and from you - through and from so many, now - illuminating the darknesses within and without. We are seeing how fear and separation function in the world.
We're feeling its temptation in ourselves.
It's ok that the divisiveness happening in the world inspires your own experience of fear, anger, judgment, and other separating devices. The light you're bringing shines on it so you can see. It's ok that you feel these ways. Please be gentle with yourself. It's not who you are; it's an experience that is asking for healing. This stuff is rooted deep in us, and is now being highlighted so we can heal and clear and create anew. Thank you for witnessing yourself, and for knowing how you would rather be feeling and showing up in the world.
Vulnerability takes immense courage.
You may be experiencing conflict in your personal relationships. We are coming into a section of time when we'll feel a certain optimism, a lightness, that will enable us to exit the multilayered trances we've been in. The "unsettled" feeling of these trances is clearing; we are moving back home to ourselves so we may engage from a place of grounded, connected wisdom. There is a greater clarity growing in you that allows you to be with what recently felt like overwhelming, impossible inner/outer conflict.
But it's not a time to push in any direction. Not time to force yourself or anyone else into anything. Not time to push even your nurturing. It is time to pause, and to allow. We invite Divine Feminine patience. Please notice when you're nearing overwhelm. This is a time to pause and take care of yourself in order to stay resourced.
Patience and vision.
It only takes a moment to shift into your preferred experience. It is a shift in where you place your attention - from the chaos to the stillness, from the inner tornado to the breath, using your eyeballs to see what is literally in front of you right now: a painting, a tree, your partner, the food you're cooking. See, and breathe, and know that you are in a body. You are here, now. From this place of clarity you can smile, and breathe your heart, and feel the freedom to look compassionately on yourself and the collective while the darkness continues to be revealed.
Thank you for seeing your complexity.
Thank you for allowing your vision to expand to include what's most uncomfortable. Thank you for inviting and following a flow of healing. Thank you for using your magnificent power to magnify and expand love in you. Thank you for locating in love, and holding the darkness with that light.
With deep respect for every piece of your experience, I am shining a thousand blessings into your beautiful heart.
I am not afraid. All shall be well.
These bodies will die; they always have.
It's ok to let it all be ok. To trust. It is safe to do so.
While the world's leaders scramble to figure out a way to save us, save our money, save the way things have been, we dive beneath the surface to find our deepest roots, and we reach out to one another. We take care of each other with gentleness, and generosity, and love. We remember what it's like to truly support, and to receive true support. We connect. We remember our hearts and our gifts. We give. We receive.
We send love to the ones in denial of what's been created. We send love to the ones who reinforce the disconnect. Organically, peacefully, we emanate love. We stay out of their illusion - it's their business, and it will run its course, like all things.
It is safe to trust.
Together, we shine.
Art: New Pioneers by Mark Hansen
Your Ceremony of Healing
I see you, Friend. I see you riding the waves, navigating the seas. You're doing a great job, and I hear you. Thank you for manifesting this writing; it is a ceremony that is being designed by you, for you, and I am honored to write it in your name.
In ceremonies of healing, I call the directions and the elements to support the work. They are a part of the sacred container that generously holds and supports the healing. South/Fire's been glowing bright these past two months, showing me its gift, its way of holding, its purpose, and these days it's burning hot.
We asked for change. In ceremony, we plant the seeds of our intentions in the East. When we ask for change, things get shaken up. And here we are, all of us standing in Fire's alchemical corridor while everything, it seems, is turned upside down. We are breathing and pushing and feeling the pains of rebirth. Sometimes it feels like death - and it is. Sometimes it feels like we'll never make it through. But Friends, we are also waiting for ourselves on the other side, calling each and all of us through and forward into a new way of being.
Breathe. These are not just words you are reading. This is your job, one your Soul designed for yourself. You can do it. You are held in a powerful container of light that is right now being created for this healing.
You are still and always an active co-creator in our shared experience. This is the momentous opportunity we are being given: to intentionally birth the human collective into a shared love and reverence for all beings. Harmony within ourselves and with all beings and this planet. A felt knowing of our connectedness. Caring for all beings. YOU are the microcosm of the macrocosm: a Beloved Human Being, created by and made of our unified Source. Your energy, how you feel, what you think, what you say, and how you behave is connected to and affects everything - literally. And as a human living here and now, you have been evolutionarily gifted with exactly what you need to BE the change you have asked for, and to thereby create our new, harmonized collective reality.
Please, turn on your inner witness, the one who can see your entire experience at the same time as you're having it. Witness your thoughts, feelings, physical sensations, imaginations. No one knows your inner world like you, and YOU are your best healer. Be gentle. Breathe.
With the alchemical power of Fire, we are burning through fear and the resulting illusion of separation from one another. We can heal what we can see and feel. So please, just for now, notice if you feel afraid. Allow your feelings of anxiety or uneasiness to be. It's ok. It is safe to feel and to notice your feelings. Notice what you turn to for support, and what it really does for you. Does it isolate you, or connect you? These are not just words you are reading. Really check it out. Notice how it affects your physical body. Do you tense up, harden, create physical shields of defense? Just witness it. Witness when you feel the tiny or overwhelming urge to horde, to take more for yourself than you need, leaving less for others. Notice when you poo-poo another person's feelings of fear or fragility, and how that puts a wall between you, blocking your connection. Notice when you're feeling trapped in an obsession with doomsday reports, and what that does to your nervous system. It's ok, just notice. We are doing this together. Notice which energies and information you choose to take in and cultivate as building blocks for the world you're now creating. Perhaps you withhold words of comfort because you're afraid it's not good enough. Maybe you ignore your intuition and defer to external authority. Or maybe you decide not to care, or not to help, or to look away from someone's suffering, because it's more convenient to shut down or move on. Maybe you're so hard on yourself you cannot rest. There are so many ways showing up right now for us to see the fear that's been wound into our systems. Now breathe. We are holding every part of you with love, right now. It's all perfect, Learner. Thank you, Awakening One. Breathe into the feelings. Love yourself, every bit of you. You are doing the best you can - you always have. You were taught things, and you grew from there, and you are growing from here. It's all perfect.
No judgment here, just witnessing and experiencing. So feel it all. Feel it, and scream, cry, bellow. Howl it out to the moon. It hurts when we forget who we are. Mourn. Water the seeds of change with your tears from the blessed West. Let it be processed. Hold it up for yourself to see so you can love these parts of you with blessed compassion. You are courageous, and you are healing, and you are beginning again to source your experience in love. Move it all through. It's ok that you've felt these things. It's ok that you've acted these ways. This is why you're here: to do this work, to help us all come home. Let it move. Lovingly release what's held you bound.
And if you feel shame, let this loving fire burn through that, too. If you feel remorse or regret, hold those feelings with compassion, and let them burn in the fires of transformation. We are holding this process in a circle of light. If you notice you are judging this process of change, love that part of you who separates from the possibility of healing and connection. You are welcome here. You have always done the best you could do, in every moment of your growing awareness, and you still are, right now. See yourself. Love yourself. Come clean. Come home. No explanations are necessary. All is forgiven. You are welcome here, exactly as you are.
Burn, baby, burn. Let the fire light you up. It shows you what you haven't been able to see about yourself. It shows you how you've cultivated big blocks or tiny threads of fear within your own being, how you've participated in creating the ILLUSION of separation from others and from your own true nature. We all have, and it's ok, and now is the time to actively transform. It is safe to do so, now. You belong. Just as you are.
You know in your heart how you would rather be feeling, thinking, behaving. You know what you would rather be giving, and therefore receiving. Your heart knows what love is.
You are being called, supported by the greater knowing that is YOU, to birth yourself into love. You are now called to remember the truth of our unity, the very fabric of our existence. You are being called to stand in your shining sovereignty as together we find solace and empowerment in the goodness that we are. It is time to come home, here and now, manifesting this truth by the power of North, and Earth. Let love fill every inch of your being. It is who you are.
Breathe compassion through every piece of your experience.
Just breathe into your heart. Imagine your heart in your chest, your heart chakra or your anatomical heart, and imagine it breathing. See it taking air in and expanding, then letting air out and contracting. See your heart breathing with every breath you breathe. Smile, and let the chemicals of friendliness wash through your being. And feel a positive emotion. Feel love, feel gratitude, feel appreciation. These are not just words you are reading. This is a practice of manifestation, Friend. Really feel love, gratitude, appreciation while you smile and breathe your heart. Slow down. Let the feelings expand in you; embody this love, this gratitude.
Breathe, and imagine your friends and loved ones, and send this love out to them. Slowly, slowly. Breathe.
Radiate your shining light, and imagine the people who feel challenging for you. Breathe, and shine love to those people. Compassion, compassion as we all heal our way home to the truth of our unified caring.
Breathe your heart, and smile, and feel this beautiful truth of the love that you are, and imagine it weaving through your community, connecting to all of your loved ones, your friends, your neighbors, your teachers.
Breathe it around and through your city, shining out to all the people and places and things. Breathe it out and around and through your entire state.
Expand, Friend, and radiate this love that you are so that it weaves and blooms its way through your entire country, west to east, north to south, every bit of it.
Breathe, and shine your loving truth out to this entire planet and every being on it. Shine love to the beings of the land, the water and the air. Shine your lovelight to the plants and the trees, the air, and the waters, and the Earth herself. Be with this entire planet, in the powerful, unified love that we are.
With so much gratitude, let love expand, and send these blessings to All That Is.
Thank you, Friend.
It's all perfect.
Be outside. Breathe fresh air. The natural world has never felt so alive, so generous, so supportive. You are now and always held with love and compassion; it is who you are.
I am shining a thousand blessings into your beautiful heart. Bless you, and thank you for your tending.
Bowing in divine recognition,
Image by Kuba Ambrose and Vera Atlantia
When we fear that the truth of who we are is in danger, humans have a tendency to protect ourselves, sometimes in ways that are harmful to others. Most of us were born with the felt experience of infinite connection, knowing our preciousness; but for many, circumstances created a fear of that preciousness being harmed, shunned or taken away. That fear is enough to make us harden, resist, judge, fight, strategize, hide, pretend, isolate, separate, oppress or even hate, as a way to protect our precious Truth. Sometimes we do that for so many years - or lifetimes - that this notion of separation becomes our personality, our way of being. It is far from the truth of who we are.
Over time, we run that program for so long, we no longer remember what our Truth truly is, and we begin to locate not in our wholeness, but in the walls we've built around it. We forget who we are; we speak from the walls, instead of from our hearts. We actively separate, rather than resting in the connected wholeness that still lives in us - that which we are, but which now lives under so many layers of protection.
Sometimes a person, a movement, or an era comes along and creates an opening for people's Truth to courageously emerge. Sometimes whole groups of people start coming home at once.
Sometimes, when a person first stands in their Truth, it comes out as anger. It can sound demanding, deserving, immature, mean, even asshole-ish, and often lacking the grace that will unfold with time, especially if loved into homecoming.
When we remember our Truth, we are more able to hold space for others' Truths to be remembered. We can hold loving space while others navigate their way home, through the layers of their fearful anger or defense - or even offense, grief or shame, or however the journey home begins. We don't tolerate this process; we honor it. We allow its movement. We do not turn away. We do not hide. In the sometimes ungraceful beginning of someone's unfolding, we work to resist the temptation to restore our old walls of judgment, defense and separation - the ones we built so long ago to protect our own precious Truth, and later dissolved in order to live in freedom. In time, as we learn to love and honor ourselves in these moments of forgetfulness, the temptation to again separate dissolves. Instead, we hold loving space, from our own place of wholeness. We remain - as Jesus did, as Gandhi did - in love.
We demonstrate Love
For those we love,
For those with whom we disagree,
For those whose fear runs the show,
For those who are so lost, they do harm.
We stand lovingly, solidly in the truth of our shared wholeness for those who are so lost, they encourage others to do harm.
We demonstrate Love.
This is the space we hold for the current wave of remembrance. It is the place from which we take action, even though the catalyst for Truth's emergence looks like total chaos. We stand in the blessed freedom of Truth. We live from love. We lead in love. We allow our hearts to call the other hearts home.
Art by Autumn Skye Morrison
Creating From Love
Friend. Your intuition is spot on. If something makes you wag your tail, look there.
Sometimes your brain will bother you with nagging thoughts of regret or concern. Don't worry about them. When you notice your brain doing this little dance, acknowledge it: "Huh. The brain is doing this regret thing." Or even: "Hm. That's not me." Then ask to switch - or declare that you are switching - to a different lens. For example: "I'm ready to see this through the eyes of love." Or maybe: "I'm switching to a loving lens." Or how about starting here: "I love you, (your name)." You can shift to a different way of seeing, thinking, feeling.
This shifting to a different Way - these are not just words on a page. It is real.
Lovingness is not some foreign experience to seek or figure out or make happen. It is in you; it is who you are, and all that is required is a shift in your awareness, your perspective. Move your attention. Become aware of love. It is.
So relax, yes? Be nice to you. Breathe the love that is always and already Who You Are.
Your feelings, in combination with your thoughts, are magnetizing experience to you. So let them be loving, in service to the highest good for yourself and all beings. Why bother with anything else?
You are brilliantly designed to create your experience based on your feelings and focus. Luckily, you have been evolutionarily gifted with consciousness, the ability to use mindfulness, and free will, all of which you can combine and use as a tool to literally rewire your brain and help you create the experience you want to be having. If you have already discovered these tools, you can count this as a reminder to go ahead and use them. It is your gift and your birthright and your purpose to create, and you are doing it, consciously or not. You get to do it from love or from fear. You get to choose. These are not just words on a page; it is real. You get to choose your experience, and since everything is connected, your experience affects everything.
Remember love. It is who you are.
You are important, Sister.
Brother, you are important.
Thank you for your good work.
Bowing to your heart,
Who Are You Now?
It is time now for many of us to stop telling our old stories. Time to stop calling up those old feelings that keep you shackled to your past. Time to tell your NOW story - your story of you. Tell it into being, Friend.
"I feel _______. I live this way: _______. I am ready for _______."
Your words are so very powerful, Friend.
They keep things alive.
They give life; they birth. They create worlds.
And... there is such a thing as right timing, right? Because there's a lot of learning to be done as a result of what has happened. A lot of power in telling your stories. Power in watching them change over time, as you change over time. So feel into yourself. Is there more healing to do, by way of your storytelling? Is there more learning, more understanding, more awakening, more opportunities for alignment contained therein?
When you tell your stories, do you feel yourself returning to the old feelings as well? Feelings are the most powerful manifesters. They are the fuel and the main ingredient for your creations. Are your stories and their attached feelings anchoring you to a past version of you?
Are there ways to tell your stories from where you are now, that honor and respect who you were? Ways that honor and empower who you are becoming?
Is it time to detach completely from the old, knowing the story is complete within you, and needs no further tending? Is it time to let go?
Is it time to tell only your NOW story? To stand solidly, empowered in your current experience, unencumbered by the past? Is it time to really feel and know freedom?
Creator, are you ready to choicefully, consciously feel and simmer in the feelings of a future reality that already exists, and thereby call it into manifestation?
You know your timing. You know your fertile ground. You know your ruts. You know you best. I hold your experience, whatever it is, with such reverence. I'm here with you, wherever you are, in every moment.
And if a universal nudge forward is what you have called to yourself, Friend, then this is it.
If the timing is right, then I give you permission, dear soul, to stop telling outdated stories about you. You are allowed and invited to be here now with your words, your heart, your knowing. You are invited to fully embody your current experience of you, with everything you are. You are invited to be free, and to create from here.
Bowing to your beautiful heart,
Thank you for your good work, Friend.
You are doing so much. Thank you for your courage and your tenacity. Your patience through this learning process is such a gift. Thank you for learning to listen. Thank you for learning to honor and respect your experience, and the experience of others. Thank you for letting go of blame, and tending to what's in you. Thank you for learning what it means to forgive.
Thank you for choosing love.
I invite you to allow yourself to experience true pleasure. Now is a potent time for you to create and imprint a much deeper experience of it in your system. This too is part of the collective healing we are currently participating in, and will support your fortitude in the days to come. I invite you to slow way down. Set aside your ideas of what you think should make you feel good, and luxuriate in what actually brings you pleasure. Quiet down the noise and listen for your relaxed aliveness. Drink it up. Soak it in. Let your cells be nurtured and nourished by this deep knowing that is exquisitely yours. Reset, replenish, restore. Every part of you will thank you in the days to come.
Bowing deeply to your powerful heart,
Fall wind gives another push to the red orange brown leaves - fullness of summer's growth shining bright as day, letting go bit by bit as we head toward the stillness of winter. I can feel the culmination of so much work, as the final energetic lint balls of summer's healings get swept away to further reveal the ancient, baby-fresh Truth of who I Am, held in this sea of Forgiveness.
I Am: One gigantic incarnated, multi-bodied deity. Each of us perfectly where we are in our realization of this truth. Living on this unfathomably intelligent, generous, responsive Earth.
I am learning to live in Forgiveness. It arises naturally in the expansion of my awareness. I practice it by bringing mindfulness to it.
I am taking time with Forgiveness. Breathing it in. Breathing it out. It's so much bigger than I ever thought it was. Probably so much bigger than I even know now.
I worked hard for years to achieve a state of forgiveness for those who'd harmed me with their energy, words or actions. I worked to release anger and resentment. At best, I achieved acceptance based on the knowing that "hurt people hurt people" - they have suffered, and so they do harm. But forgiveness? No, not really.
I worked hard to forgive myself for intentionally or accidentally harming others or myself. I learned to practice shifting out of the deep neural grooves I'd carved from feelings of guilt and regret. It brought some relief. But forgiveness? For myself? Not really.
The balm that finally released me to freedom is the Forgiveness that arises from the realization that everyone is in the process of waking up to the truth of our unity. No one is left out of this process. We are each literally doing the best we can, given the awareness we currently have. And every bit of everything is happening perfectly, in right timing.
When I say "awareness", I am specifically referring to the awareness of our unity. Everything affects everything. If you don't truly know that everything is connected, it seems fine to put your material success above others' basic needs. It seems fine to simmer in judgment of yourself or others. It seems fine to waste resources. At this level of awareness, you truly do not know that your energy, intentions, words and actions affect everyone and everything. The journey into awareness is indeed a journey, with layers and phases, ebbs and flows, big and small awakenings. Walking this path, your alignment is inevitable. Not that you're perfect and blissed out all the time, but you begin to become aligned. The map of life is enlightened, read easily by your heart's compass. You continue to learn and make choices as best you can, and your growing awareness guides you to source those choices in love. You know when something you've felt, said or done feels off, you lovingly accept what is, you correct left or right to stay the course, and you continue on. You grow to live a life of intention, knowing that you affect everything.
Even if you know you'll harm yourself or someone else by doing something, and you choose to do it anyway, that is the level of awareness you currently have, and you are doing the best you can with that awareness. Your awareness in that moment literally does not allow you to act differently. You are perfectly where you are on your spiritual journey, always. Every experience you have and every choice you make is here to help you learn, as you awaken to Truth. It's a journey. It spans lifetimes. And every experience and every choice exists in a neverending sea of Forgiveness.
And so you do the thing and you cause suffering, and here you are with the feelings of guilt, shame, regret. These feelings are messages from your internal compass. They are a gift. They are your heart's voice. When you hurt someone, including yourself, you feel bad. The "bad" feeling is a teacher, here to help you make new choices on your awakening journey, rightly timed with your growing awareness of our unity.
You are not meant to suffer. You are not meant to flog yourself for the rest of your days. Your higher self does not ask this of you. You are here for love - here to love, and to be loved. In all ways. Always. Your experience of fear, separation and suffering is a temporary forgetfulness of who you are. Free will allows you - has always allowed humans - to choose love and unity, or fear and separation.
In every moment, you are free to shut down, ignore your feelings and carry on with life. You are free to continue condemning others or doing the painful acts, and to replay the feelings of anger/resentment or guilt/shame/regret over and over until you die. Because you are a human, you have the gift of free will. The path of separation is available to you. And in this choosing, you are sacred. You are loved exactly as you are, in your divine perfection, wherever you are on your journey of awakening.
In every moment, you are free to change. You are free to hear your heart, let go of any contracts you've made with yourself to uphold beliefs, stances, loyalties, behaviors, or ways of thinking or feeling that separate you from your true self, other beings or the Earth. You are free to drop them like a hot coal, and begin a new way of being. You are free to step into love in every moment. You are free to let go of "I can't, I'm not, I'm too old, it's too late." You are free to start now.
In every moment, you are free to experience forgiveness for the separation you have caused or experienced. You are free to feel and witness your feelings. You are free to choose a loving way of being with yourself and in this world. You are free to zoom out to a larger perspective, to enter a field of grace where love and learning are available to you right now. Because you are a human, you have the gift of free will. The path of love and unity is available to you. And in this choosing, you are sacred. You are loved exactly as you are, in your divine perfection, wherever you are on this journey of awakening.
Across lifetimes, across all timelines, in all concurrent realities, everything is forgiven.
Everything is always returning to the light, perfectly.
From this perspective, Forgiveness isn't about a person.
It's not about you or me. It just Is.
In every moment, Forgiveness holds all things sacred.
May all beings be completely healed and awakened. May the light of Forgiveness spread like a balm through the hearts of all beings, so that we may be free to heal and to remember, integrate and fully embody the Truth of who we really are. May all beings choose love and unity, to live in harmony with the Earth and all things. May the pure light of love shine brilliantly and be known through every perfect human expression, free from fear, in the ineffable Truth and beauty of our unified divinity.
Riding the waves
of this profound divine incarnate experience
with gratitude, trust, courage and love,
Skill Building: Setting Intentions
Divine Creators: A quick note about intention setting and manifestation. Remember how your words are all powerful? Your feeling state is the fuel that moves those words from sound to solid.
Consider that the words "want" and "need" imply lack. Since lack is an inherent vibration in "want" and "need" statements, at least a portion of what you're requesting is more lack. Get it? Try using "ready for" and "excited to" instead. Check it out:
Feel the difference?
But before you begin: boost your creationary words with feeling. Your feelings are the ground into which you're planting the seeds of your intentions, so make it fertile. Make it alive. When you're making an intention, take a minute to focus on your heart. Feel that place in your chest. See it. Breathe. Smile (smiling activates chemicals that create an inner atmosphere of welcoming and friendliness). Think of something that makes you happy - Fall, puppies, your amazingness, good friends, love, anything. Then let go of that image and just FEEL that happy feeling. Feel it in your heart. Feel it in yer bones. Breathe your heart. Now say those magic words: I'M READY TO...
It's Fall, peeps, and we're just past the Equinox, heading toward Samhain, Halloween, Dia de Muertos, the thinning of the veil. Feel the sparkle? There's magic in the air. Ain't no better time to make some yourself.
It's ok to stop trying so hard to get it right. Just be yourself.
You are already fully awakened, fully aligned, fully attuned, completely realized, ascended and complete. Your perfect, immaculate, divine, sovereign self is here. Now. You always have been. And you are here to guide your human form, body and mind, on its journey. Want to meet your spirit guides? Stand at the mirror and look into your own eyes, Beloved. You signed up for yourself long before the miracle of your manifestation and birth. You created this very human form to be exactly the way you are, with the intention to guide your human self along the way. Remember who you are.
It's ok to stop worrying, Friend. It is safe to lay down your concern. You are never, ever alone. And everything - everything! - you experience is held in the perfect, loving awareness of the Beloved, which you are and have always been.
So shine a little light on this dear one you have created. Show her the compassionate Way. Give him the unconditional love that you are. When you stop worrying and trying to get it right all the time, he can let go a little bit more. And when she lets go into the knowing that everything is happening in service to her healing, she has space to accept herself, body and mind. Every feeling, every thought, every impulse is allowed to be - and every bit of it is here to help you. With your divine permission, you can see it all as a gift - every bit of it: the anger, the jealousy, the hopelessness, the doubt; the curiosity, the longing, the joy, the passion, the gratitude, the contentment, the accidents and intentions and addictions and collaborations; every time you put your foot in your mouth, every time you're bored, every time you rock your own world, every decision you get to make, every time you hurt, every time you love, every time you gloat and every time you experience humility - ALL of it is here for you to see and to help you accept, with love, your beloved human self on its perfect human journey.
Every piece of you is given permission to be, Friend. And thank you, thank you for being. You are precious, and you belong, and you are welcome here.
You are the light of pure consciousness.
And you, dear human, are loved.
Bowing deeply to your heart,
Creators, I've been hearing a lot of language lately that is calling in exactly the things people don't want. People are tossing around all kinds of "shoulds" and "have-to's." These words are some of the best you can choose to keep yourself stuck in an unwanted reality.
Your words are vibration. Each one vibrates at its own frequency. Some of these frequencies expand, and some of them contract. At the finest levels, everything - not just words and sound, but EVERYTHING is vibration, and everything affects everything else. With every word, you are transmitting signals to your emotional and energetic bodies, your psyche, and the universe.
Take a minute to feel what it feels like when you say these words (really, slow down and check this out):
No, should, hate, can't.
Now take a breath, and say these words, and feel how they feel:
Yes, choose, love, can.
With a deep bow to Dani Katz and her book "Word Up" (highly recommended!), I give you these few quantum languaging hacks:
This word orders you around, shutting down you as a person and actually turning the thing you "should" do invisible. "I should be eating healthier" - ugh - makes me feel bad about myself. Doesn't inspire me to eat healthier AT ALL. In fact, it makes me want chips and cookies immediately. Right? So here are some languaging options:
This bossy phrase denies your sovereignty and your free will. You don't "have to" do anything. You get to choose. You don't "have to" meditate every morning. You choose to meditate because it brings you peace. You don't "have to" go to work; you choose to go to work because you choose to have a steady income. Please try this instead:
So. You are officially invited to notice the words you're using, and to choose exquisite languaging that creates an expansive vibrational experience for you and everyone and everything.
Here's one more piece from Dani that I personally enjoy: when I hear myself using low-vibing language, I will say, right out loud: "Cancel, delete, erase." and then I say the words that intend my true intention. Give it a try. Yes you can!
Attention determines experience. We attract and affect and create what we focus on, and how we focus. It's all vibration, Friends. Every bit of everything. And our words are powerful creationary tools - ones that are so very easy to choose and use consciously. It's another part of this brilliant human design.
So many of you are at different levels of realizing that you are a creator. This piece of awakening comes to most in flashes and waves of understanding. It's true that with every thought, you are creating. With every feeling, you are creating. With your words - oh lordy, with your words, you are creating. And when you settle in to a sacred spaciousness to experience true intention - whew. Get ready.
You are powerful.
When you align with your Divine nature, you begin to see that EVERY being is an expression of the Divine, including you. They (you) may have suffered greatly, and that suffering may have caused them (you) to become fearful, judging, even hating, even violent - and still, they (you) are in truth an expression of the Christ Consciousness. From this place of alignment to Truth, forgiveness is reality. Compassion is real. What is created comes from our shared Source. And our new collective experience - one that is healthy and cooperative, infused with love, caring and equality - comes into being.
How are you creating?
It's time to set down your judgment. Let go of bitterness. Trash the habitual self-deprecating language.
You are worthy of love. So feel it, Friend.
You are not separate from anyone or anything. You affect everything.
It is time to create with compassion. Create with love. Create with forgiveness. A heart-guided reality is available to you, Beloved. It's leading us back to worldwide harmony.
Thank you for your curiosity, your persistence and your good work. Thank you for continuing to learn. What a bright future we are now sharing! You are powerful, Creator.
August 12th, 2019
We toss around the word "ego" like it's the enemy, something to be overcome or transcended. But the ego, the personality, the small self, has been created by you for the very purpose of offering you the tools you need to remember who you truly are, and then a way to express that truth. The ego itself is not bad. Allowing the personality to rule your life with identification to past experiences, habitual ways of being, belief systems, appearances, material possessions, etc. stands in the way of your self realization. When you remember, realize, awaken to your Divine self, your personality doesn't leave; it begins to align with that Truth. And because you are a Creator, when your personality (which is how you interact with this human life) aligns with your Divine self, the world you experience also begins to align in this way.
You begin to see through the eyes of love. You do not deny any of your feelings; you welcome them as guests and teachers. You do not stop having a sense of humor; you rejoice in how funny you can be. You do not stop experiencing your sexuality; you embrace your desire and your pleasure as the Beloved. You do not drop out of society, renounce all material possessions, and become a breatharian (unless of course this is your true desire and purpose); you enjoy and appreciate and engage with life.
You might think, "I am a stylish person, I am in control, I am ashamed of my behavior, I am a successful businessperson, I am a cheery person, I am a facilitator, I am a sarcastic son-of-a-bitch, I am a masterful gardener, I am a yoga teacher" - but when you let go of these impermanent identifications and locate your knowing of who you are in your divinity, you simply cannot lose. The Truth of who you are remains, always. You become free, and wealthy beyond imagination. You know your wholeness. The I AM that is your Divine self is expressed through you, effortlessly, and you experience the gift of unconditional love that you truly are.
Here is one simple practice to help you relocate to Truth:
Give yourself some space, some quiet. Say aloud a list of things about you (it's important that you actually say these things out loud, not just in your head).
"I am a mother" (father, sister, etc.)
"I am a banker" (mindfulness teacher, grocery checkout person, travel agent, etc.)
"I am an attractive woman, I am a circus performer, I am an addict, I am the president of such-and-such" - let the list come out as it will, according to how you have known yourself.
Then end by saying aloud:
"I am not that."
I celebrate you in this moment on your journey of homecoming
And in this moment
And in this one.
You're doing such a good job.
So many gifts you keep giving yourself! And by gifts, I mean all these people and situations that keep showing up to trigger you. You are doing such a good job of calling them in to push your buttons. It's a meaningful gift from you to you: an invitation to bring awareness to your inner world. An invitation to love yourself more. May you be blessed with the courage to see what's really happening in you, beneath all your reactions.
Your awareness makes space for love, compassion and forgiveness--which helps you to identify and loosen the more intricately tangled pieces of your patterning. It’s multi-layered, this web of experience. Healing and reweaving our hearts' connection is intricate work. Know that you are not alone in your experience. What is in you, is in many. Wherever you are in this process, thank you, and bless you.
So give yourself some space. Breathe. Love yourself. Really, just say it out loud: I love you, ____. I love you. Shine that lovelight on everything you feel, everything you've been, everything you are. You are forgiven. You are learning. You are loved. May it feel safe for you to heal, friend. You are precious.
Thank you for your beautiful heart. I send you blessings for balance and courage, humor and reverence, grace and love. You got this.
Working with Judgment
Judgment. Ooh, that sticky monster and master of separation. I've been on both ends of it - the doing and the receiving. I get it. There's nothing like judging someone to help us stuff our insecurities about who we are. Nothing works like judgment to help us feel superior when we feel challenged, uneasy or afraid. Nothing like judging someone in order to maintain control, to squash our fear of what's unfamiliar. No better way to skip over our own uncomfortable feelings, or avoid looking at the parts of ourselves we're not so proud of.
The interesting thing about judgment is that not only does it shut out the one you judge... it harms you, as well. It shuts down your own heart. Puts a thorn in it. Makes your body tense, your breathing tight. It stops you from feeling love.
Another interesting thing is that, as a divine creator (yes you are), you are indeed drawing into your life exactly the people and situations you uniquely require to heal those painful feelings and return to love. You brought those triggering people into your life in order to see what needs healing in you, and to liberate your heart. You called them in to help you awaken to the truth of who you are - to help you practice loving, until love is all there is.
I want to share a tool with you. These are words channeled from Jeshua ben Joseph (Jesus) through the Shanti Christo Foundation (I'm not a Christian, and I'm not religious, but I sure do love and appreciate Jesus). Check this out:
I judge you not.
I extend forgiveness to myself for what I have created.
I embrace you, and I love you.
I free you to be yourself.
I bless you with the blessing of Christ.
Please, breathe. If you know you've been judging someone, bring them into your awareness, and with mindfulness, let these words wash through every bit of it:
I judge you not. I extend forgiveness to myself for what I have created. I embrace you, and I love you. I free you to be yourself. I bless you with the blessing of Christ.
Go on. Try it. You got this. Thank you.
Thank you, Friend! More and more, you are placing yourself in the situations and surroundings that best serve your heart and your purpose. The more you actively place yourself in high-vibration fields, the more you become who you really are. You’re seeing how low-vibration thoughts, images, ideas, food, conversation, media and relationships have a negative impact on your being. More and more, you’re spending time with the people and experiences that encourage you to feel, and to feel what's true for you. More and more, you’re choosing to immerse yourself in the energies that weave a bright and loving experience for you as an awakening human; and as you surrender to this field of your creation, you soften and connect more obviously with pure awareness.
You are beginning to really understand that you are a creator. Your life is a reflection of your inner experience and your unique expression. Thank you for doing your part to heal yourself, your relationships, and this planet. Threads of trauma and woundedness are being cut. The patterns that used to run as a result of those wounds are ready to be cleared out and replaced. What was frenetic is becoming calm. More and more, compassion and gratitude are flowing within and from you. The struggle for purpose gets replaced with openness and availability, acceptance and devotion. Congratulations on your abundance! Thank you, Friend, for your persistence. You are such a valuable part of the whole!
Fear rises up. I won't hold it. I breathe it out. Take in the good, clean air these life-giving trees are making for me.
I know these threads all too well: a tendency toward isolationism. Judgment. Competition. Separation. -isms. Control. A tendency to cut off what I perceive as having "hurt me", to avoid what's challenging. A tendency to build walls and box in to an unexamined life. These things I've seen, I've healed, am healing, in me.
So when the things happen, like Alabama - as they are happening more and more, almost every day, it seems, these past few years - my initial want is to flee. To leave the country, find a new bubble - or at least, find a quiet spot on a tropical beach... and what, hide? Numb myself with alcohol? I don't drink, so that's out. And the shining clarity of sobriety won't let me rest. Running away would mean living with denied truth lodged in my heart like a festering splinter that can't be found. The truth comes instantly, every time: Staying is unavoidable.
After that momentary desire to flee is this: Being in love and continuing to heal is all there is.
Heal it in me. Help others heal. Heal it in me. Serve.
These past few days I've watched the old play of wounding in me. In my personal life, parts that were healed were tested. I don't even listen to the news anymore; I know our connection, so I just watch what's happening in me, and I breathe, and I love and I forgive. I come home.
The process isn't always comfortable. Sometimes it stuns me, knocks me to the ground. But this good ground has her roots in me; she receives my hurts and holds me up. I am devoted. I learn. I return to love.
It's why I'm here. It's why I stay. It's why I return: to love.
Memory of the fires and of not being burned. Held captive by a man who knew me - felt the truth, longed to live there - but wrestled with his internalized fears that belonged to the men around him. Knowing the truth, but pulled by the lies they told about me, about the tribe of Woman. I was held captive. Hidden. Not burned. Protected. Grudgingly, painfully, vitally trusted. He understood my connection, had felt it himself, felt the deep divine love administered to his hurts and his heart through the portal of my earth-womb-heart-hands; but the fear taught him to control what was free and good, wild and alive; so I was punished, all the while holding space for his struggle. Rooting to the earth; disconnect impossible. Rooted and receiving - fortified, blessed - watching him long to rest in his heart's knowing, watching him trying not to fall in line with the fear and the lies, watching him hating himself for not being able to just be. He beat me to punish his own weakness, his confusion. But while others burned, he did not give me up. I tended my wounds and I tended him, holding space for his process, giving him the medicine of lifetimes. Seeing clearly in him the truth he longed to remember, beneath his anger and suffering. Loving him toward his return to freedom, to peace.
So I stay.
Flee, stay, and next comes the relief that I don't have children who will inherit this mess. And then the sharp ache for the little ones in my life and the lives of my friends. And then these children's children, and on and on. Grateful for their courage, their emotional intelligence, their independence. Praying they are taught above all else to listen, listen, listen to their hearts. To love and honor themselves and all beings.
And then the knowing: I inherit this. The current embodiment has never been and will not be my end.
I've been here before. I'll be here again. Healing, healing, healing. Rooted and receiving. Fortified and blessed, in service.
Love lives. Love lifts. Love is. I am here.
"I am resilient.
I trust the movement.
I negate the chaos,
Uplift the negative.
I'll show up at the table again and again and again.
I'll close my mouth and learn to listen."
-Resilient, Rising Appalachia
Moving the "Energy Medicine"
I'll be announcing dates for more Clearing Ceremonies next week! Space is limited to 6 participants.
I'm in awe of how this energy medicine gets designed specifically for each person. It's like they are a tapestry, and the medicine unties knots, repairs holes in the fabric, and weaves together the field... all perfectly timed and in the doses for which people are available.
This is not Reiki (although Reiki was my introduction to energy work), and it's not Pranic Healing, or anything else I've heard of - although the modalities all connect; they all have flavors of each other. The medicine that flows through me has not yet shared its name (although I'm starting to know who/what it is). It is energy. It is Spirit. It has its own intelligence. We collaborate, and together we serve. I continue to learn.
It's historically felt uncomfortable for me to market this work. I'd been doing it almost secretively for years. Last Fall, a wise man said to me: "Do you think God wants you to just sit around and hope people somehow magically know about this? I'm guessing the Universe wants people to receive this healing. You're going to have to tell them you exist." Smart, huh? (I can think of a few other healers who might take those words to heart.) So I opened my mouth about it, and now more and more people are accessing me and this medicine. More and more people are being helped; more and more people are receiving upgrades from this particular consciousness. I'm the human one in this sacred collaboration, so I'm doing the human part of spreading the word, finding the venues, creating the containers and delivering the medicine. I'm so grateful to be in this sacred partnership! Whoop whoop!
I'm happy to be going offline for the next few days. I'll have ceremony dates and info for you next week.
You Just Know.
Sometimes you just know the answer. You don't know how you know, and what you know goes against what your mind may be telling you.
I wonder what it would be like to trust your knowing - to let your heart drive the decision making, even if it's unlike what you've always done. Even if it makes no sense. Even if there are a thousand reasons to make a different choice.
Because something in you just knows.
I wonder what it would be like to create a soft spot in the back seat, where your mind's reasoning can take a rest. Those parts of you deserve some love and gentleness; they've tried so hard to serve you over the years. And it's worked out pretty well, for the most part. You've certainly been kept safe - or at least, things have stayed the way they've been. Thank you, parts of you, for trying.
But there's something that's more... right. For you, I mean. You know what I mean.
Your heart knows the clearest path home. And it so loves to drive. Best driver on the road, you might say. Knows how to navigate around all that noise and traffic. Never bothers with detours. Takes you to profoundly familiar places you've never been.
So take a minute.
Breathe into it.
Your heart speaks your deepest truth.
It's what you know.